a letter to my parents...

To: My Parents.
Re: Valentine's Day.



Dear Mom n Dad,


Happy Valentine's Day! I'm sure you guys are aware that it is Valentine's Day today, even though you both do not celebrate it, because it's all over the media. However, i am even more sure that you guys realised that this makes yet another year that your dear daughter does not have a date...and this happens to be the whole point of this letter. Ok, no. I take that back. It is not exactly about not having a date...but more about that big peony painting you have on your living room wall. (if you are not sure which one i was referring to...i've attached a picture of it for your reference...)

I think it is time you guys found new friends or asked for a refund for the painting! You all need new friends, because your friends who told you that if you hung a peony painting in your house, your daughters will have "tao hua yun", probably lied to you.OR...the huge ass porcelain peony painting that you shipped all the way from Hong Kong, which cost you a whooping $1k is probably fake. I know! Maybe the flowers in the painting are actually chrysanthemums! Now i'm even more convinced that you both NEED to get a refund immediately! Hmmph! Oh alright...i was just joking.................NOT! (Borat Style..Ha!)In any case Happy Valentines Day once again.

Love.. Hugs and Kisses,
Your Laughly Daughter!

P.S. On the way down to take a photo of that painting...i noticed your pot of newly acquired artificial flowers, that are precariously positioned at the corner of the staircase, under tt huge "Your Dad is watching you!" painting...and they look suspiciously like peonies too...ok we get the hint.

damn blardee good one man....

once again, i am sitting here WAITING for people to send me stuff so that i can do my work..and while i am WAITING...jack's mannequin is blasting in my ear, but i'm not exactly listening to it because i'm busy multi-tasking - switching between emailing and "msn-ing" to try and chase ppl for the stuff that they owe me or waiting for their replies on issues that cannot be resolved for weeks, and issues that my sup is breathing down my neck about..irritating. but that's not the point of this post.

as i am busy chasing people...i suddenly stop all that i am doing because my nose starts clogging up again, and suddenly i cannot breathe.....and that's when i realise the lyrics of the song that's playing in my ears..."you can breathe, you can breathe now, you can breathe but the air is running out......."

-_-" how apt.

after having complained for 6 mths about how i detest work, i am still stuck at the same place...unfortunately. and the only thing i can blame is my own laziness. i have slipped into the comfort zone (yet again) of my work, and although i still face the same irritating ppl and same shit everyday, i am starting to get used to it. like how most of the time my parent's nagging seem like music to my ears (after having gone through a "good" 22 years of it), and how i've grown accustomed to someone's temper and our cyclical fights.

so...instead of making my life even more miserable...i have taken on the office culture of...cluttering my desk. just yesterday...C and i scooted off to ikea for yet another shopping trip...and here's what my desk's like now...

the corner of the desk that i sit at...see my very high tech phone?it's so high tech i dunno how to use it..and hobz spoilt it the other day when she left me a voice mail..now it can't be used!

the left side of my desk that needs to be cluttered further..it's too empty. other ppl have stuff like mini fish tank, speakers, document tray, big winnie the pooh table mat, freaking a lot of photframes..mine clutter's nothing compared to theirs!

the right side of my desk @ snack corner

yahoo widgets

this will defnitely be nothing new to mac users, but guess what windows users? we now have widgets too!! they are way cool! though it causes the comp to hang once in a while, it's still makes the desktop super happening!

so...pls go and download the yahoo widgets...and find you can visit find for more widgets here and here

ipod radio remote

the iphone is just way cool. trust apple to come up with something like this. yet another one of those superb apple products that people will die for. but i've come to the conclusion that i will never own one because 1. i just do not possess the money for it. 2. i am damn anal about having finger prints all over my phone or what ever glossy surface of items that i possess ...so i will probably spend more time cleaning the prints off the phone rather than using the phone. hah.

my latest possession. now i can listen to the radio when i am sick of listening to the only 2 albums tt i love in my new ipod. though the reception's not absolutely perfect, but it's just damn cool. steve jobs and his teams' just way brilliant. oh...and now i don't have to constantly dig my ipod out of my bag to replay "dark blue" by jack's mannequin :) thank you

these shoes aren't made for walking

i don't know how it works, but my shoes always manage to give me freaking aching/blistered feet even though the only walking i do everyday is from the car- to the mrt - to the office - to my desk - to the cafe - back to my desk - to the toilet - back to my desk - to the toilet - to the foodcourt - to my desk - to the toilet - back to my desk - to the toilet - back to my desk - to the toilet - to the mrt - to the car.

OR

my feet manage to kill my shoes. let's see...ever since i started work..i've worn out 5 pairs of shoes. wth. and so anyway...just now i had to go to the shoe shop to get myself YET ANOTHER pair of plain black pointy heels. because i am boring.

and i have to say that it is really nice to know that...giantess like me who have big feet can finally find cheap shoes that actually fit my godzilla feet. the shoe shops finally recognise our existence. FINALLY...THERE'S HOPE FOR MY FEET!

no one told me it would be.... and was going to be so difficult....

one trip to the doc + one box of mc nuggets + 1 fedac = 1 sedated bear(me)

hello sunshine....

....come into my life.........

one of the biggest sun haters i am. i rejoice in having rainy gloomy days, but complain when there are too many of such days. there are just some things in our life that we take for granted, or do not cherish until they are gone...like mr. sun himself. honestly, the sun has been out much longer for the past two days, than it has been for the past one month, and i didn't realise it until i read about it on someone's blog today. it takes a person's blog to make me realise a simple thing like that...now it just makes me wonder exactly which world am i living in?

shit i really have to stop being so stonny and get my act together. but how to when i'm vegging at home today?sigh... time to head to the doc to get my leaky nose fixed...

argh! my nose!

my nose is killing me...two days ago...it was like this tap...it leaked occasionally and a little bit at a time...so i decided to take things into my own hands, and i took the trusty panadol cold. the trusty panadol cold was not that trusty afterall, because i ended up enduring a freaking bad headache in the office...and had to tahan the whole day coz there was so much work to do....
thinking that the lack of sleep must be the reason behind my leaky nose...i decided to take the sat off partying and stayed home the entire day to sleep.but omg.....instead of becoming better...my ears and nose all got blocked, and i felt like i had a ton of mucus stuck in my head, and my eyes felt like they were swollen. gross. and damn it...instead of getting better after a damn long sleep...my leaky nose turned into the freaking niagara falls! i've been going ard the house with a tissue stuffed up my nostril the entire day...

sigh...it's amazing how much mucus one can have. i totally feel like the tap below...and instead of sleeping i have work to do...sian...it's damn sad how there's not a single day in the week that i look forward to :( working ppl always look forward to the weekends...but i.......look forward to...the end of my job...hahahhaha...bah

oh...pls let me talk abt the very interesting things my father has to say abt my leaky nose

"your nose can't stop leaking because you don't have enough sleep!" (ok, this one might be true)

"your nose can't stop leaking because there must be some flu bug in your body, you better see the doc and get it fixed before ur nose becomes permanently damaged" (ok this one i agree too)

"you see...you don't want to get up early to go and choose a new bed...ur old bed must be the cause of your nose...all the mites etc." (huh! thought mites only cause like rashes etc.? but omg...yucks my bed has mites?!)

then when i sleep the entire day because i heed his advice abt not getting enough rest...he says...

"can you pls aim to wake up before 10am on sunday?" (no...because if i wake up any earlier how do i get enough rest?"

"you do nothing but sleep...waste the whole day away!" (what else can one do to get more sleep other than sleep?)

"why are you sleeping again?!" (errm....because i don't have enough sleep??)

........................my dad is super omg.

picture time

Lazy to talk about the trip...so as usual..the pictures will do the talking....

Genting_KL_Dec'06

clockwise from top left: the leader. driver of our car. aaron and dawn popping out of the window for a smoke at the toll. first world hotel. on the way up to genting.

the passenger's in cootie's (check out his face..hilarious!) car. me room mates. van, colin, kelvin, aaron, cootie and esmond.

sleepy heads....we are the champs...7 ppl in one room..5 on the bed, 2 on the floor!

KL Zouk.
Evidence that we conquered KL Zouk....
....and more evidence that we conquered KL Zouk!

supper at the roadside stall.

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Christmas Eve_2006

Thanks fifi for the wonderful dinner! I ate till i almost puked..the cheese hotdogs were the best! And a HUGE THANKS to all of you for the surprise bday cake! as denyse will say...wuv wuv to all of you!

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Hang out @ Katong

Bowling and KTV at the cheapest and best place in the east. Thanks to fifi again for staying till midnight and for being the first to wish me... and to peach, lg and fifi for the song u sang in the lift ..the uncle in the lift with us looked freaking traumatised..i shld have video-ed him too..haha..

anyway..britney...u sure u know the lyrics to ur own song? i'm starting to doubt ur identity!

peach had the highest bowling score of the night..105.. we must bowl more, look at the pros...at round 5 they already had a score of 123 and we only have like what 24?!

and lg..u look like u are eating the mike in the pic........

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Dinner @ Hilton

Jap buffet at Hilton hotel. Not that wonderfu leh...anyhow..thank you my lovely "drive me up the wall at times" family!

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One of those winebar days...........when yoyo suddenly popped out of nowhere! it was nice seeing u yoyo (who looked a bit like the One on his shirt that night)...but where the hell's my krispy kreme?! forever talking about it but until now i've never seen it! Until u buy it for me, don't talk to me abt it again! hmmph!

ok...my new year's resolution is to not get pissed so often right....but i have to break it right now.....

WHO HAS BEEN GIVING OUT MY HP NUMBER AS RECOMMENDATIONS?!?!

first it was some finance company. then some facial thing, then insurance people and now true yoga! 2 of them i found out....if i find out the other two...you all are dead! or at least tell me that you gave my number, so that when these people call me i can not pick up my phone! stop giving my number to all these companies, i hate to waste time being persuaded....and persuading ppl to stop persuading me. so pls stop giving out my number!

first working day of the new year. nothing changes even though it's a new year. here i am, sitting and waiting for people to send me things once again. just waiting and waiting everyday..don't get me wrong, i'm not complaining this time round because it only means i have time to blog.

so, in the blink of an eye, 2006 zoomed past without me realising it and 2007 is here. so many things happened in the 2006..a freaking bad year for me, and i'm glad it's over. hopefully 2007 will be a better one? HOPEFULLY.

new year's resolution...never believed in it, but doesn't hurt to come up with one does it? 3 things for the new year, to stop getting pissed/upset, stop saying "fuck" so many times in a day. and stop saying "cb" before it starts to become part of my vocab like how "fuck" has already become part of it. simple plan.

best resolution i've heard so far, comes from my colleague...."my new year's resolution is to have a resolution the following year." that, totally takes the cake.

everybody got a well deserved break last weekend. while people were partying here or catching up on their forty winks, i did the unimaginable...i "ran" off to KL at 2am, without telling anybody, and i came home yesterday to a bunch of angry friends who kept saying "tsk tsk" to me, an exasperated father and 2 sisters who said i'm horrid.

but u know what? i don't care that everybody's unhappy with me, because i'm happy i did what i did. i don't care that they don't understand why i did it, or that my parents think that i am increasingly rebellious these days..because at least now i am less unhappy and i preserved my sanity.

last night my dad said to me..."so did you enjoy urself in KL?" and i said..."yes..very much." and he replied "u ran away from home in the middle of the night.".....................hahaha...evidently, he's still freaking pissed with me, but let's put it this way..there's never a day that he's not pissed with me.....oh well......

anyhow...
"hello" to all the new friends i made and got to know better on the trip, the 3 days spent together was absolutely fun.
to the girls..glad u all had fun at zouk, but zouk KL is much more fun! haha ok..shan't piss u all off further.
to you...thank you for things that don't have to mentioned.
to my parents...you all cannot stay pissed with me for long because u all love me and i'm just too cute (afterall, my cuteness it the reason why chubsy exists!) to be pissed with...HAH!
to my sisters...u two fatsos better pay me back for the stuff i got u...and the next time u complain when i go on a trip i won't buy anymore things for u...because i always end up having to save on stuff tt i want to buy so tt i can get the things for u...BAH!

Happy New Year Everybody!

early wishes

Merry Christmas to one and all..and HAPPY FUCKED UP BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!
fucking shit load of work for the next 3 days....so while everyone is happy partying away, making toasts to each other and eating their bloody roast turkeys that i hope is poisoned...i take on their fucking shit to finish. thank you to one and all. screw you world.

i forgot to mention that i am down with gastric flu. wtf. my stomach cramped up the entire night...and i wanted to puke. and when i went back to the office today...i found out that 4 of my colleagues were down with it! see...the problem with centralised air conditioning systems.

5 days in heaven

once again, i escaped to my heaven for 5 days. second time this year. the winter chill was refreshing, but the rain totally dampened everything (literally). the usual ritual...eat, shop, eat, shop, eat, shop...plus a wedding dinner. i woke up feeling down on my last morning there, coz i realised that i had to come back to face reality. take me away from here.


oh well...there's no escaping. pics!
peach, mel and jin....look where i had dinner at on my first night there?! our fav...shan hu hai! thank god they didn't play the song...i think i wld have puked out my dinner.
the feast i had that night. ginger crabs, roast goose, stewed goose feet, lamb hotpot, yam/pumpkin pot, fishhead with pork...topped with a bottle of schweppes ice-cream soda. bloody delicious and fattening.


no more pics of my other feasts...but what i had on one of the nights...steamboat at yao guat hei, my fav! char siew pao and xiao long bao meant for the steamboat, plus the fish noodle thingy...and of course not forgetting a nice cup of suan mei tea.


all i have to do now is like look down..and my double chin..make that quadraple chin..sticks out!

2nd day: chubs and i ventured out on our own as the parents went for the tea ceremony. later that night..my mom said to us both..."the both of you should have gone! so many good looking boys there! maybe u could have gotten to know one or two...oh yar and got one boy look like ____". i think they're getting a bit worried that their daughters will be left on the shelf, and they have realised that the peony painting's not working it's supposed magic.

anyhow...after shopping ard tsim sha tsui..we ventured into a cha chan teng called qing song yi xia (relax a bit) and we had weird food like...ribena with lemon(which was really nice) , a bowl of vietnamese noodle with pig liver and meat balls and a plate of fried udon with mother *beep* huge chicken wings. trust them hongkees to just throw everything in, and create a new dish.

later that night...we attended the wedding dinner...it's pretty much the same as over here..but the ppl seriously dress super interestingly. check out the guy below..he looked like a potential terrorist la...way off the cool factor already.


3rd day: met up with my granduncle from vancouver who was holidaying in hk. omg...old people..they just love to reminisce the past. we walked one thousand miles to the i dunno what convention centre just to look at the boh-i-dunno-what golden flower. this was our reaction..."ok nice flower......." damn bad la.

4th day: shopping around harbour city and ocean terminal...branded goods galore. lane crawford wins hands down for it's christmas decoration every year. we found two new shopping places...argyle center and fa yuen street. omg...argyle center is far east times 2. freaking a lot of cheap and good stuff...but if u are claustrophobic or have athsma..or just damn short...i suggest u skip that place. it's so packed..there's hardly any oxygen.

oh yea...not forgetting the other feast at my aunt's on our last night there. we freaking travelled a distance that's equivalent to pasir ris to jurong east for a plate of ginger crabs (yes again), steamed scallops, two freaking big plates of veggies (my aunt said we have to finish it because veggies are damn expensive in singapore as compared to hk...-_-"), steamed fish, cold chicken, cold duck and blardee huge pot of "leng" soup...and to end the night..fruit cake (that's the bride cutting the cake) plus tang yuan. omg...i feel like puking already.

our brilliant tour guide brought us on a merry-go-round ard the estate...omg..walked until we almost died. i was contemplating collapsing at the door of my auntie's house and exclaiming that her house is so far! guess who we saw on our last day there?! shi yi ge! shit i always see him. why don't i bump into ppl like sammi cheng or andy hui or andy lau??? oh yea...we saw george lam at the intercontinental hotel...he looked like he just walked out of the guiness ad. -_-"

tribute to my grumpy shopping partner. u suck. we were breathing down each other's neck the entire trip...u are a lazy bum for making me pack the luggage all the time. but smart enough to realise that i grabbed the wrong luggage at the airport. HAHA! i bet u didn't realise it...but the luggage that i grabbed was a total different colour from ours...hahahha! oh well..i am not the only dumb ass because pops grabbed the wrong one too!

but i admire you for your guts. i dared chubs to salute to the fire engine that was stopped at the traffic light..and she really turned towards it...and saluted! the expression on the firemen's face was hilarious! even mastercard can't pay for it.

i'll never _______ you.....

meru has never taken the mrt before.

dinner with kenny wwknnbccb today...he's as funny as ever..my fellow kdkster. all hail kdk! after dinner...i went to "remember to eat" with peach and meru...and while waiting for meru at cityhall mrt station...

me: meru...which door are u at? i wait for u there...

meru: door? the door got number one ah? i only know i am in the middle of the train

me: u suck la....look above the door...there's a number on the light...

meru: errm...ok...5

me: ok...i am at 5...it's nowhere near the middle of the train, are u sure??

meru: yar...ermmm....omg....HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA

me:....what??

meru: omg.....so embarassing...know what was i looking at???

her door number...18 and 5 are so far away la! this just goes to show tt meru has never taken the mrt before.

happiness is shortlived

091206. my first time ever at zoukout. it was super fun...i don't really know what's at the other end of the beach because i never ventured there...but the side i was on was fun to the max. and i dare say i don't regret going for it.
to all who treated me to whatever u treated me to..thanks!
to mar who helped get the cheap deal for me at the last min, plus walking the entire stretch of beach to pass me the tickets..MAJOR THANKS! and i just remembered that i didn't reply ur sms :S
to hil who lost her bag for 15 mins and the tix together with the bag...and then couldn't find her way out to me..no thanks!
to hil who finally found her bag in the end..thanks!
to u all who ostracised me because i did a stupid dance and talked to the winebar waiter...no thanks! u biatches.
to the guys who brought the booze in your lovely cars..thanks!
to my lg who was off cheating on me...and msging me random msges like "i drank a lot blah blah blah..." the whole night..no thanks!
to my lg for loaning ur bed to me for 15 mins..thanks! p.s. lg..ur mama's funny. just like mine. i'm sure if i asked whether i am part of ur family, she wouldn't say..."O_O i don't have a son!", she will say "of course..what a lovely pretty daugther i have!" instead.
and to everyone else...aiya fuck off la. haha kidding...erm..whatever. ok i dunno why i said that for.



walked into the office today...and my colleague char said to me...

char: thanks for calling me at 6am to ask if i was at zouk out the other day!
me: 0_0 no i didn't.........
char: yes u did......
me: errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....ok i don't remember being drunk.
char: yes...here's what u said.."heyyy where are u???"..."i'm home and sick in bed..where u babe??"..."omg...how come u're suddenly sick?!i'm at zoukout!"..."who are u with? are u ok??"..."i'm with ben...we're lost..yes i'm fine!..ok u take care and rest well k!"...
me: .......................shit....i called the wrong charlene..........
us: HAHHAHAHAHAH WTF!

omg...major embarrassment. whose fault?! ben's...for losing his way and not charging his phone battery.

well..happiness is shortlived.

the great ppl who brought the booze...drank ourselves silly before entering zoukout, took stupid pictures...drank weird concoctions. ben's concoctions either tasted like abnn's odour or like ginseng tea....damn gross la. then we had to walk from gateway carpark all the way to palawan beach. along the way this fella came up to me and said...sian hua! here're some fresh flowers for u...eh wtf.

the umizarus.


outside the toilet...we were spying on hil doing her spg thing.......and peach took a photo...peach send it to me soon!

us without hil who was busy doing her spg thing....

dammit my face got cut off...i shall distort this pic too coz i am unhappy tt my face got cut off.

yyyaaaayyyyyyyy........nakid men...urk.

JUST FUCKING STOP LYING TO ME.
STOP TAKING ME FOR A FOOL.
JUST STOP IT.

the last kiss

i woke up this morning and decided that it's been a long time since i watched a movie, and really enjoyed it..so i sent out like 8 smses asking who's interested in catching the last kiss, and 3 people didn't reply me. the 3 of you suck!

after much smses, calls, frustrations and curses...i ended up catching the show with the one who proposed to me in my dreams (wtf!). what a romantic date it was...romance show, plus only the both of us...when was the last time we caught a movie alone? we should do this more often...only thing missing was our lovers combo. we replaced that with two hotdogs, one coke and a crispy chicken. talk about wanting to lose weight.

anyhow.....to all who have not watched this show...and if u continue reading on...you have only yourself to blame for spoiling the show for yourself...don't say i didn't warn you.

this show presents the harsh reality of romantic relationships in the modern society. there really isn't such a thing as love. guys are just pure scumbags, the only head that works on their body is the one between their legs. like what firefighter always say..."guys, only think with their dicks." if i didn't remember wrongly, someone in the movie said that "love is just not enough". yar zach baraff was shouting "i love you", "i love you" like a mad dog in the show, but the fact is that he still cheated on his fiance.i love you..my foot.

this is supposed to be a romance film right? but all i felt throughout the entire show was anger and sadness. didn't even feel touched or whatever. then again...maybe there wasn't a scene where we're supposed to feel touched...i don't really remember. but all i remember was i walked out the cinema feeling even more angry than i was before i went in.my movie date said...wtf ...such a stupid ending..and i said yar! no kick at all! pissed off. and now i have to go to sleep feeling pissed. good nite

who am i trying to kid when i reasoned out everything and came to the best solution to all that's going on now? nobody, but myself. i need to go away for as long as possible. i'm angry with the whole world and how everybody decides what i'm supposed to do with my life. why do i not have a say in anything?

"we decided to volunteer your time on doing blah blah blah"

isn't it MY TIME?! then why am i not asked beforehand whether i would like to have MY TIME volunteered? why do i have to take instructions for the miserable amt that you are paying me. you know what? i fucking quit ok...go find yourselves another stupid admin specialist. i've had enough.

and to all at home...stop asking me questions and stop nagging at me. i've had enough.

and to you...i don't know what to say anymore.

is life better as a pet dog?

was feeling like shit this afternoon. absolutely no mood for work or anything else. had a very bad migraine that caused my vision to blur, and made me feel like puking the entire day. and i had to stay back till 645, and bring work home. sucks to the max.

anyhow...C and i did it once again. for the second time this week, we boarded the bus without knowing where we would end up at. and today we ended up at east pt. after a crappy snack of carrot cake and prawn balls, checking out ugly clothes at E.P. and talking rubbish to the in-line skating shop owner..we found ourselves in pet safari. and here, i forgot all my woes for a good 15 mins.

dogs are just the cutest things on earth..except for corgis, poodles, chihuahuas(hate them the most) and this other breed that i forgot the name. i couldn't stop taking pictures of them and ooohh-ing and ahhh-ing over them. my fav's the yorkshire terrier...and the chow chow's so freaking fat and cute. but that sei fei zai..as i was saying how cute it looked, it turned it's butt to me and shat right infront of me...basketball...so much for cuteness and manners. sigh...i wish i still had a dog.

time for bed once again...and then a brand new day of troubles and unhappiness starts all over again.
maybe life as a pet dog is better...u get fed and loved without having to ask for it...tt's provided if the pet dog does not get abandoned of course...

life's agony lies in not getting what the heart desires.

super wtf....

saw this at dinner just now. i swear..after u say it in ur head repeatedly...u really get convinced that it's called glass jerry!

24th sept...

majorly overdue. photos from 24th sept. a suprise party which failed. after much sms-ing etc..leonard and i finally organized a surprise party for the bday boy who just returned from his 2 weeks sailing trip. but omg it was a complete flop. i had to coax him to go to the place...and when we finally walked into the restaurant..there were only 3 ppl sitting there when there was supposed to be 7...i think the shock i got was bigger than the shock tt he got.


anyhow...thanks daph for the pics! i am still disappointed that my face is only in one of them...and i will still distort all of them coz i am unhappy about it. haha!

ah 24...what a lovely number...because 2 mths after 24 sept...it's 24 dec..and it's the bday of someone special ...someone by the name of saltz *hint hint*

friday's when we drink and get drunk and cry over the start of a new working week in 2 days

Life's Peachy and Life's Good (Lg, i will report all my toilet trips to you, and who i go to toilet with)

kunies and some scary looking person
the real peach, jin and saltz

J.A. and i

some random guys i met at zouk...oh erm sorry...i mean..my bf, his flen, clement and his flen, errand (i hope none of them sees this).

ok i am in the process of discovering my talent in doing web whatever u call it.
the colours on my blog totally suck...so pls pardon the terrible look of my blog right now.

*snorez*
*oinkz*
*pootz*


blah. the days are so "blah" these days.

work is going doooowwwwwnnnnnn....losing my drive. everyday i go into work like this -_- and try to be like this O_O. just as i was wondering how low it could go, i got assigned a new task. to think of creatives for the company's website. woohoo! ok i'm exaggerating, i just have to think of which pages i want to edit and come up with some catch phrase. but oh well, something new, and it sure beats staring at these "1090198350923560123974" everyday.

my colleague asked if i was interested in marketing as in marketing per se, and i said...err yea sure, i mean like i'm a lost youth. throw me anything and i'll try it.but maybe spare me the numbers and reports?and she said "ok cool, if i have events that i need help on, i'll let ya know!"...yay!...." but first i'll check with ur sup of course"..ok, dang.

this week's planning week...EVERYBODY'S out of the office and i'm left all alone at my desk with no one to talk to. i'm becoming autistic. i miss the two crazy women who sit beside me :( to make things worse, i lost their numbers when i lost my hp, and i can't sms them. basket.

so i decided to go and make a new friend. i went to search for the "msn" contact of the new girl sitting in our aisle and asked if she wanted to lunch together. i'm like some blardee weirdo/stalker who anyhow attack strangers. and she said ok sure,why not? (i can't rape her what right).ok...the world is so freaking small, it's not funny. turns out she is one yr older than me, from cjc, and from my senior class. wtf. so i named all the guys in my class and she said yes she knows them..then she asked me if i knew ***** and i said yes. then she haha! he's my ex boyfriend. eh wtf. ok scary enough! so yay...now i have a new friend :) (blardee pathetic i am)

say....if only i knew the name of that cute guy who sits on my level...heh. then i can search for his "msn" contact and like make friends with him too *snigger*

a good one that my colleague sent me

"True Friendship"

(With none of that Sissy Crap!!!!)
Are you tired of those sissy "friendship" poems that always sound good, but
never actually come close to reality. Well, here is a series of promises that
actually speak of true friendship. You will see no cutesy little smiley
faces on this card - Just the stone cold truth of our great friendship.

1. When you are sad -- I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against
the sorry bastard who made you sad.

2. When you are blue -- I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

3. When you smile -- I will know you finally got laid.

4. When you are scared -- I will take the piss out of you about it every
chance I get.

5. When you are worried -- I will tell you horrible stories about how much
worse it could be until you quit whining.

6. When you are confused -- I will use little words.

7. When you are sick -- Stay the hell away from me until you are well again.
I don't want catch whatever you have.

8. When you fall -- I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.

9. This is my oath..... I pledge it to the end. "Why?" you may ask; "because
you are my friend".

Friendship is like peeing in your pants, everyone can see it, but only you
can feel the true warmth.

And remember.... when life hands you Lemons, ask for tequila, salt and
call me over!!!!!

you think it's a joke?
you think it's funny?
it's not anymore.

sleepless nights.
nightmares.
occassional sweet dreams of daytime fantasies that are disrupted by sudden awakening, and realization of the cold hard truth.
not being able to go back to sleep.
not having the appetite to eat.
not being able to cry.
aching heart.
migraine
dark eye rings.
fucking pimple.
cramps.
lack of energy for anything and everything.
stabbing pains in my back.
legs that turn numb.
constant naggings at home.
nochalance that's greeted with even more naggings about bad attitude.
having to meet expectations.
leading a life of others.
having to do what others want, and expect and yet not being able to get what i want in return.
contradictions.
being told that i have a choice to lead a life of my own, and yet being forced to conform to others' expectations at the same time.
not having the energy to explain to people whom i wish would understand the fuck that i am going through.
having to accept others' views and points and yet not being able to bring mine across.
fucking lost my phone.
call me if you want me to have your number.
distance.
urge to punch something, someone or even myself to transfer the pain, but yet not having the guts to do so.
fucking coward.
not being able to stand up for what is mine.
cheap fucking sluts all around, whom i would just punch inthe face if there weren't any law, but yet all i could do was shove them, and yet they still came back like flies to a pile of shit.
i can't do this anymore.
and yet i can't not do it.

have you ever tried telling people that you are down or depressed, and you really have no mood for anything..especially not work, and all you want to do is stay at home and lie under the covers to cry and sigh, and the answer you get is...don't talk rubbish. stop being lazy. you have no patience or perseverance etc.? it's like you say u feel like shit, and then u get even more shit back.

well that's what happens when i tell my parents that.

wtf. maybe they will really believe me when i start like talking to air, or sit in the corner and start like chewing paper or what.

There's a danger in loving somebody too much,

and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.

There's a reason why people don't stay who they are,

Baby, sometimes love just ain't enough.

us..the great rats!

Though the Western rat is reviled as little more than a bottom-dwelling disease carrier, this animal is viewed much differently in the East. The Eastern rat is revered for its quick wits and its ability to accrue and hold on to items of value; rats are considered a symbol of good luck and wealth in both China and Japan. Clever and quick-witted, the Rat of the Chinese Zodiac is utterly disarming to boot. Possessed of excellent taste, this Sign flaunts its style at every turn. Its natural charm and sharp, funny demeanor make it an appealing friend for almost anyone. The Rat likes to know who is on its side and will treat its most loyal friends with an extra measure of protection and generosity.

Behind that sweet smile, though, Rats are keen and unapologetic promoters of their own agendas. This Sign is motivated by its own interests, which often include money; greed can become a problem if the Rat isn't careful to keep its priorities straight. This Sign's natural powers of charm and persuasion can definitely come in handy! Although they are often hoarders, Rats can be very generous to those in their "pack," namely friends and family members who have proven their loyalty. Others might perceive them as quick-tempered and sharp-tongued, but never boorish. Verbal jousting is a great pleasure for the Rat, a Sign that everyone around will quickly learn either to love or to hate.

Rats enjoy being on the outside looking in, as the outside affords a view into the inner workings of a system or situation. The Rat's keen mind always seeks out new knowledge, to be stored away for future use. This ever-curious Sign also welcomes challenges as a way to stay sharp. If boredom sets in the Rat is no fun at all, but that isn't likely; this Sign knows how to keep itself entertained.

A valuable lesson for Rats is to learn to consider others above themselves, at least sometimes. If they can develop their sense of self and realize it leaves room for others in their life as well, Rats could find true happiness.
The most compatible match for a Rat is the Dragon or the Monkey.


aren't you glad i'm your friend??? sekali tmr suddenly i have no more friends...

today i had a sausage egg mcmuffin, a hashbrown and a cup of ice milo for my breakfast :)

ok that's all. hah...u wish.i'm so talkative..how can that be all?!

anyway macs is up to the same tricky long john silver business. when u order a breakfast meal..they ask u what drink wld u like? and when u say ice milo...they will ask u..medium? HAH! TRICKY BASTARDS! don't fall for that! say...NO! SMALL YOU TRICKSTER! SMALL!

so anyway as i was saying...after breakfast...i started falling asleep. as in seriously. so i had to resort to calling my pfc friend and pretend that i was interested in buying some bonds..but she said sorry we no sell bonds. wtf. and after 3 mins she said she had to go...bah. so i started falling asleep again.

then i decided to call this guy i call my bf. and he asked me...why didn't you msg me yest? to which i replied...why didn't u msg me yest? and he said no...why didn't u msg or call me yest? and i said why didn't u msg or call me yest? so we spent 5 mins asking each other the same qn. and finally we went through both our schedules for yesterday and came to the conclusion that i was busy so i didn't msg him, and he FORGOT to msg me. at this pt...he drops a whole of bottle of pepper into the bowl of noodles he was cooking and shouts...FUCK! I CAN'T EAT MY NOODLES ANYMORE! hah! serves him right. see what does this teach u? remember to call/msg ur gf everyday or ur lunch will get ruined.

yest my colleague said to me...listen to my piece of advice. don't waste your time quarrelling with your bf. because men are stupid...their minds only think in one direction...it doesn't diversify like ours. so there's no pt arguing with them and trying to get them to understand how we feel and think because they JUST WON'T GET IT. i thought about it and i think...yea that's quite true. so i shan't quarrel from now. (yar right.)

did i mention tt my dad bought me an ipod video as an early bday gift? i think i didn't. yes! i finally have a new ipod! and it hangs everyday. so i haven't even had the chance to use it. what a trashy piece of junk! now i gotta bring it back to the shop! ok anyway..thanks pop.

i'm so f***ing pathetic, i don't know what to do with myself.

robbing me of my riches

i don't think i am a very greedy person. or that i ask for a lot in life. i am pretty satisfied with what i have, even though i am constantly being shortchanged...my salary is the best example. overworked and underpaid. maybe in my last life, i was a greedy person who had a lot but was never contented, so that's why i'm constantly being robbed of my riches in this life. please stop taking away "things" from my life. leave me with the very little that i still possess. please.

let me lead a life of my own, and not a the life of others or the way others want me to be.

falling sick and getting an mc ...check!

being surrounded by sick ppl who are constantly coughing germs into the office atmosphere for a month + extremely terrible haze + being overworked + trying to maximize my very shortweekends (hence staying out till the time normal ppl wake up to go to work) = finally falling sick and getting an mc!

so yes. that is one item off tt list of things that i have to do.

but then....because i am suay and really special, i do not fall sick the way that most ppl do. most people just get flu and fever aka runny/blocked nose & ears+ cough+fever....i on the other hand have to be different.

1. i get these stabbing pains in my back...for 3 days...and tt got me worried because ppl start saying tt, tt's where my kidney is located and it might be serious problem.
2. i fall half sick. the feeling of ur flu threatening to develop and yet not developing is the worst but anyway it finally developed on sunday night...and hence i slept through the entire monday.
3. i get diarrhoea. wtf.
4. i get weak legs tt keep going numb from the diarrhoea

why can't i just fall sick like everyone else?! but anyway...as a result of all these rubbish, i got to leave the office at lunch to come home to work today. so right now...i am WORKING FROM HOME. and i really like the idea of working from home...work has never been more enjoyable and comfortable. haha.

of course the best part of it all is that the toilet is right behind me, and i can dash in the moment i need to go...unlike in the office, i have to lock my comp first, then run to the toilet which is miles away.

and luckily my supervisors are nice people, they allowed me to go home the moment i told them i'd visited the loo 6 times since i stepped into the office...here's the conversation btw my sup and i..

me: hey j, do u need me ard this afternoon? i think i've got diarrhoea or something coz i've been to the toilet 6 times since i got into the office...and if u don't need me ard, i'll go home during lunch and work from home
j: oh no...i hope it's not that stomach flu thing
me: oh no...i hope not too. i can't believe how suay i am..my butt is aching like hell now..not tt u need to know tt..haha
j: haha yes..too much details!
me: hahah
j: ok sure..u can work from home..i just cc-ed u regarding *****
me: yup i just got it, will work on it at home
j: sorry to have to torture u with work despite ur burning asshole
me: HAHA! no worries man...

very humourous ppl they are indeed...yes my asshole is really burning. crapz.

impatient active landmine

"don't waste my time". that's the sentence that's constantly repeating in my head these days. time is THAT precious to me. i have almost zero tolerance for indecisiveness and wishy-washy-ness. i cannot stand it when ppl tell me, "i dunno", "anything". and i'm sorry if i snapped at anybody recently, particularly u know who you are. so let's say if i let you choose, and u can't decide, then i make the decision, and u say no, then u are dead meat. because my time is precious, and if you are going to waste my time with your indecisiveness and i decide to make the choice for you, but u don't agree, then i am going to snap and explode in ur face.

and then there's the active landmine bit. i get angry at the tiniest bit these days. and i am sure someone knows that well. as much as i've tried to control my temper, i have failed. i was only successful for two days, out of the 10 days that this has been going on for. argh. i hate it. i think i'm better off alone. if i go on the way i am, everybody will just start avoiding me and i'll lose my friends.

today's gonna be a good day...

yes. i am sure it will be one. for the various reasons below

1. i'm decked out in my favourite colour...from head to ankle..cannot say feet coz i'm wearing gold shoes
2. my eye candy appeared at the mrt station this morning, and we took the same lift *wolf cry*
3. someone is coming home a day early!
4. and i think i don't really have work to do today...I HOPE...but this one will hardly ever come true..never mind
5. oh...and did i mention i have an intern to help me with my work? HOHO...means i SHOULD NOT have to work on weekends anymore!! i think i'll start loving weekends once again :)

so yes...all signs point to a good day..i shall remain positive for the rest of the day...or at least try my best to do so!

hellloo everyone...it's been a while! and omg..my life is still as boring as ever. so there's nothing much to update on it.

Work's getting better..because i'm getting the hang of things, hence i don't stress up that much these days, but nonetheless the evil queen still never fails to ruin my perfect weekends, with her need for detailed report breakdowns and what nots. resulting in me leaving the office at 8pm on fridays...which in turn cause me to be late for my fri dinner with the girls..and me having to lug the bloody godzilla sized laptop around town. and needless to say...having to work over the weekend. bah.

anyway...the reason why i am able to blog at this weird hour of the morning, when normal robotic working people should be hard at work, is because...everybody's at the weekly meeting...so as the saying goes...when the cat is not around, the mouse comes out to play, or whatever it supposed to be. and of course my laptop is hanging again...so while i wait 'patiently' for it to churn the data i need...i blog.

i've noticed this common item that appears in almost everyone's workstation...and that is a photo of either their kids, or their nieces/nephews. and all the kids are really damn cute. so i've made up my mind...since i don't have any children of my own (omg touch wood!) or any nieces/nephews, i shall just go to the net and grab some random cute kids photo, print it out and pin it on my board. what do you think? good idea or what? and when ppl ask who the kid is...i'll say...ohhh it's so and so's kid...then when they ask what's his/her name? i'll say...errrm....let me go back to the webpage tt i got it from to check...hur hur. ok..clearly my boring working life has given me a rotten sense of humour.

speaking of workstation...my desk is the most depressing and boring thing in the whole office...and my neighbour commented on it the other day. she said my table can only be so empty and neat because i'm either just damn neat by nature...which she doubts so...or i am just not doing my work. to which i replied..i have not been doing my work. and she said...yes i thought so too. basketball...

omgwtf...excel hung again...THERE GOES MY WORK! bitchass.i bet u are thinking why am i so stupid as yet as to not save my work regularly right? well for your info...i am not so stupid of course. excel likes to hang when i PRESS THE SAVE BUTTON. wah kao.

sigh.....in my first mth of work i was damn enthu to go to work every morning. now..when i wake up...i just dragggg myself to the office. don't get me wrong...i don't hate my work...i just hate working life...and of course the laptop that i am using. haha

so...i've decided that these are a few things that i have to do to really brighten up my life....

1. decorate my extremely depressing workstation
2. print some kid's photo and paste it on my board (pretty serious about this)
3. lose some weight...so that at least when i look at myself in the mirror i'll be happy. anything to make myself happy
4. eat more yummy food.
5. go for the monthly feast with the girls.
6. stock up desk with snacks.
7. apply for leave
8. fall sick so that i can apply for medical leave
9. apply for leave so that i can go overseas
10. go on a holiday
11. go on a weekend getaway
12. basically...eat and not work.

ok that was utter rubbish as usual. but...i really need to leave the country!!!
sigh..ok back to work.

working robot people and the great evil queen

after having worked for 3 weeks, my initial believe that working people are similar to robots has definitely been reinforced. i feel increasingly robotic as i go deeper and deeper into my working life.

daily routine includes:
before work - waking up at 0715hr, bathing, change, 10 mins of tv while gobbling down breakfast, leaving the house at 0815, waiting for the same expo train every morning and reaching work at 0900.
1st half of work day - chit chat for 15 mins, switch on laptop, open excel sheet, work work work work work, curse at laptop, curse at laptop, curse at laptop, lunch.
2nd half of work day - excel, excel, excel, email, email, email, email, excel, email, excel, email, excel and email ....LAPTOP HANGS. knnbccbomgwtfblahblahblah....6pm. and then i think to myself...woohoo! time to get off work. but nope that does not happen, the phone rings...a call from sup..go up to meet him/her, and tada...OT! knn.
OT- excel, excel, excel and finally cab home and dinner.
after dinner - one hour of tv, shower, chat online, chat on the phone, sleep.

like how freaking boring and robotic is that?! that has been my working life so far (except for occasional nights out), and i think will possibly be so for the next 11 mths.

but then again i think that's sort of the case for any other working person. because everybody here seems do the same at work everyweek. hence, we are all a bunch of working robot people.

then...there is the great evil queen, who can cause hell to break loose. anything that's submitted will definitely have to be redone. how anal. i think she's probably the reason why i'll be expecting more OTs. sucks.

oh yes to all who have started sch...enjoy it. i never thought that i wld miss the sch tt i disliked so much. but i kinda do...oh no...i miss the times i spent in the sch, not the sch. haha now tt's more accurate! so cherish the time u have left there...when u start work...u will mourn the loss of ur social life.
ok...i better scoot before i get discoverd for skiving. toodles.