who am i trying to kid when i reasoned out everything and came to the best solution to all that's going on now? nobody, but myself. i need to go away for as long as possible. i'm angry with the whole world and how everybody decides what i'm supposed to do with my life. why do i not have a say in anything?

"we decided to volunteer your time on doing blah blah blah"

isn't it MY TIME?! then why am i not asked beforehand whether i would like to have MY TIME volunteered? why do i have to take instructions for the miserable amt that you are paying me. you know what? i fucking quit ok...go find yourselves another stupid admin specialist. i've had enough.

and to all at home...stop asking me questions and stop nagging at me. i've had enough.

and to you...i don't know what to say anymore.