bahasa indonesia overdose

my sis just asked me why did i choose to learn bahasa indonesia the other day...she says it sounds bad...when people speak bahasa indonesia...they sound like this... PRIAK PRIAK PRIAK... and it sounds like they are clucking...and i disagreed!

but.......after listening to the diaologue in the courseware for the whole of last night and the past 3 hrs...YES THEY SOUND THAT WAY!!! and i'm sick from listening to the dialogue..i feel like puking now...like as though i'm not grossed out enough....i have a listening test later *urk*

advice: do not listen to the courseware dialogue for 7 hours in a row...you will feel nauseous!

i made a shocking discovery last night...
i don't know to laugh or not...but right now...it's really freaking hilarious!!!!*gulp*

argh...blogger has been down the entire night!...for me only...so frustrating!

right now..i'm a fat and contented girl..because i have the company of my favourite subway white chip macadamia nut cookies! :)
had dinner with ck the repairman just now...and he successfully repaired my printer, and laptop (although its a bit cranky now after getting rid of all tt excess rubbish...), but refused to repair my cooler for me :S
well...we established that i can be the president of the fatty bom bom club, judging from the way i have been stuffing myself..and i even made him walk slowly because.............................................. i was too fat and couldn't walk fast enough...*gulp*

heh i successfully tempted him to stay in the hostel next semester...next sem seems like its gonna be pretty fun...seems like quite a number of people are gonna stay in the hostel...mj and ck...and viv n jin are trying to stay too...wooohoo! ...more company!

sigh..alright...back to bahasa..hope i pass tmr's test!

to you, the violent one...quit being violent or i will report to the police tt you are a friend abuser!

tuesday nights

tuesday nights are nights for extreme studying and revision.
they are nights when we stay up late...till 7am usually...rushing projects or studying for tests.
yes...tuesday nights are those nights where hardworking people push themselves to their limits..all for the sake of doing work.

its 4am...bahasa indonesia test is THE work that has to be done...and i'm just talking rubbish once again.

this week has been spent shuttling between the wake, school and work, rushing endless projects and presentation.and taking part in leg and back breaking prayer exercises... everyone's totally worn out...we all collapsed today after the funeral.it's over...it's shocking how we take 80 over years walking the long journey of life...learning lessons and skills every single moment, experiencing joy and sadness, enduring hardship and enjoying good times...and many more other things...and all it takes to physically disappear from the face of earth - leaving behind weeping loved ones who will definitely remember your existence - is a mere 5 mins.

tomorrow and the day after's gonna be yet another pretty long day...

to all my friends who've been messaging me to ask how i am and who've been ever so supportive, and to all who came for the wake...thank you very much!am really grateful and touched! =)

to all those whom i'm doing proj with and i missed like all the meetings the past week, and have been submitting my stuff late to you all..i'm really sorry...i'll try to finish it all by next week!

life's so unpredictable and full of uncertainties. just last night..hil was asking me how my grandma was, and i said she seems better now cos she's out of the hosp...and i was reading mel's tag (thanks for your concern babe!)..and now my grandma has passed away.well she passed away this morning at 2am while i was still wide eyed and studying in smu, and no one told me till 11 am.i was sleeping and my mom called me to tell me..and i thought i dreamt it all when i woke up..so i called to double check.suddenly death seems so scary,it comes when u least expect it. =(

when mel's grandma passed away..she wrote a long entry about how close she used to be with her grandma and all..i wish i could do the same.but seriously..there's nothing i can write.we weren't close (only physically)..even though she was in my house like almost every week in the past and has been staying in my house for the past 2 years.so all i can say is..i'm glad she's resting in peace and her suffering's finally over.

the very "hardworking" people of nus who crashed smu for the night....

eayy the abuser...


saltz the abused..


oska the most hardworking one of the lot...the one who was quite off form once again...HAHA!

...at the end of it all...what have we achieved?

i won't be there - atomic kitten

my latest fav song.

I've been looking for the girl that I once knew
The girl with nothing to lose
Right before she met you
I've been telling her everything that I've learned since then
Never gonna make them
Same mistakes again...and baby

You know, and I know
You held on, I let go
Now is the time to move on

Let tomorrow be a new day
I'll be running from the heartache
And I wont be there no no
I wont be there no no
As the months turn into new years
Wont be crying any new tears
I wont be there no no
I wont be there no no
Hear me say oh , no no never ever
Oh no baby I wont be there no no
I wont be there...

Looking back I remember when I
Used to sit and cry
Every day, all night
I'm telling you everything that you knew has changed
I'll be turning a new page
All the memories erased...cos baby
You know, and I know
You held on, I let go
Now is the time to move on

Let tomorrow be a new day
I'll be running from the heartache
And I wont be there no no
I wont be there no no
As the months turn into new years
Wont be crying any new tears
I wont be there no no
I wont be there no no

I wont be having bad dreams
Wont be having regrets
Tearing at the seams
They're the things I will forget

Baby when tomorrow comes, you're gonna be the only one
If you'd loved, if you'd have cared
Then babe I would be there...

Hear me say oh , no no never ever
Oh no baby
I wont be there no no
I wont be there..

Hear me say oh , no no never ever
Oh no baby
I wont be there no no
I wont be there...

Let tomorrow be a new day
I'll be running from the heartache
I won't be there no no
I won't be there no no
As the months turn into new years
Won't be crying any new tears
I won't be there no no
I won't be there no no...

oh man...i can't stand myself! i am a pig!!..there hasn't really been one night that i've gone to sleep without having supper first =( soon i'll qualify to pin the badge tt says "i am in shape.round is a shape." on my bag! and not like i've been exercising much this sem..i've only gone running twice! terrible..terrible!

my mom called me while i was having macs just now and she said.."what?! u're eating all that fattening food??? u better watch your weight..if not soon you'll go out of shape...and ur cheeks will be come so fat u can switch off the phone with them!"..errr haha...hey someone..doesn't this sound familiar??? HAHAH!!...and right now i'm waiting for cootie to bring supper back to me :S

so anyway...i got back my bahasa indonesia test results today..i think i did ok...err guess i am pretty ok with it...although i am constantly talking rubbish in class.i think ibu knows i talk cock all the time..tt's why she's forever making me answer her qns! basketball..and i have to think for like ages..before answering...and she has a knack for catching me when i'm daydreaming! bah!

jin was telling me abt this idoitic guy and what he said about people who blog, today...he said people who blog are egoistic...damn him.thinks he's so blardee smart.tsk...he and his stupid puberty project...he can't even spell menstruation properly..."manstration"...wtf!he's been condemned by us for calling our alcohol project boring...i'm sure watching videos tt show body hair is much more interesting than alcohol concoctions. asshole.

ok...i'm done with my..."that's how my day went" entry...gonna study...else i don't have to sleep anymore =(

dirty smelly me

i should really be showering...but i just have to blog before going to do that...
currently...i smell of milo,coffee,ketchup,dettol,pi-pa gao,bath foam,facial cream and i dunno what else...and it totally stinks!

just came back from TH, and we had a crazy time sabo-ing Luther and smearing all that gross stuff on him..coz its his birthday today.haha..but it seemed like as though it was Grace's bday, coz she was constantly being attacked! the TH people had to con him out of his room...coz the smart fella hid all his shoes in his room and locked himself in there...all prepared for war..i must say!but they still managed to con him out of his room, and that was when hell broke loose! i swear..i have never seen people run that fast in their lives before..after the guys released lut...they all scuttled back into their rooms and locked all their doors...and it seemed like TH was deserted!Dawn, PJ and i tried to seek refuge in Hil's room, but he was so fast he caught us while we were fighting with that darn door stopper and we had to surrender to him!the both of them managed to escape but i got smeared with all that gross stuff in the end..unsatisfied that hil was still spotless...i managed to con her out of the room...and she got it 10 times worse than me!hahaha...so anyway the highlight of the night...the piece of cake that was stuck to grace's head!omg! absolutely hilarious!! hil and i laughed till we almost died!!

haha...so cool...how come there wasn't such fun stuff while i was staying there??=( it seems like the fun runs away from all the places i move to =( alright...now i can go shower. yet another night gone by without any work being done! -_-"

to: my good pals!!

this entry is specially dedicated to: two of my very good pals...hil and yj! =)

mondays are just total bummers. lessons from 10-8 or 12-8 ain't a joke.do not mess with such a timetable i tell ya!...so anyway..i was having my usual monday blues today, and feeling absolutely tired during all lectures...then while i was going through the last 2 hours of lessons for the day...two very funny people brightened up my day!my phone vibrated non stop, and i thought there was something absolutely wrong with it...so i opened it to check what was up...and it seemed like i was retrieving some mms from someone...in fact...i was receiving FOUR MMSes...after i got all of them...i opened them up...and i started laughing to myself in tutorial!i think joan and kim who were seated next to me seriously thought i was mad..and ibu kept looking in my direction...so anyway...here's what i received....


(err...i edited it of course...)

haha so anyway...thank you the both of you...for brightening up my dull monday! =)

i hate going to hospitals.especially the ward full of old people.it just makes me depressed.when i'm there i feel like closing my eyes and pretending that i cannot see how all the old people are suffering.it just makes me even more worried about growing old.i don't want to be bedridden when i'm old...or contract any awful disease =(

my dad says my grandma cannot hold on for much longer..and her condition's pretty critical...every phone call makes us jump, and everyone's prepared for the worse...but when i went to visit her this evening, she was just getting better.there's some kind of virus going round the entire ward, because most of the patients were having a fever.though she may not be on my "favourite people" list..i felt sad looking at her.at how half of her body's swollen, and how she couldn't open her left eye.in fact, for the first time in my life,i felt like crying for her.i guess its true that all hatred's forgotten when a person's on his/her deathbed.my dad's in some kinda frenzy, and he seems lost whenever he hears that her condition is getting worse, and he keeps asking "how?".and i told him in the 'softest' manner that i could put it, that its best that she goes, because that's the only way to relieve her from her pain....growing up is tiring...growing old is depressing.

the crappiest bunch of people =)

today was simple but absolutely fun!i laughed so much my eyes disappeared, i gained a ton of wrinkles, and i couldn't breathe properly.
no one can come up with as much rubbish as ck and brian.even clarence had to admit the both of them sure can come up with the most creative shit.ck said i'm left on the shelf and brian said i'm an old hag =( ...idiots!haha...we held up the whole queue at the cashier in taka by asking the lady to gift-wrap the minifridge, which i think she took 20 mins to do, and which becca took a mere 5 seconds to rip apart.i love the way she screamed when she saw it and the way brian had to do it with her...and the ton of rubbish we wrote in the bday card on behalf of sulin and kenny!it just made me laugh even harder!kenny's van is still the bomb..and it never fails to amuse me each time i climb into it!cloven's gonna be 'miss ong' in the future and we're gonna tease her about it till the day she retires!
...we came to a conclusion...20 years down the road...cloven and i will be tai tais...and ck and brian will be errr male tai-tais...though kenny and clarence said they'll try their best to give their wives tai-tai-ish lives, they agree that maybe life will be better if they chose the path that ck and brian are gonna take. HAHA!
my cj band family just RAWKS...we're too insane for anyone to handle!

heard this song on jin's blog...and its super nice...it's from the movie closer...i'm addicted to it now...together with hold on! haha

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

to my bitch of a friend harry:
i'm touched after listening to the song.i don't know what else to say. thank you.. for the listening ear and the advice and the scoldings and the insults..despite being million miles away.haha i know you'll say its weird that i'm so nice all of a sudden..but seriously thank you.

I know this pain
Why do lock yourself up in these chains?
No one can change your life except for you
Don't ever let anyone step all over you
Just open your heart and your mind
Is it really fair to feel this way inside?

Some day somebody's gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don't you know?
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Things'll go your way
Hold on for one more day

You could sustain
Or are you comfortable with the pain?
You've got no one to blame for your unhappiness
You got yourself into your own mess
Lettin' your worries pass you by
Don't you think it's worth your time
To change your mind?

I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and
Break free the chains
Yeah I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and you
Break free, break from the chains

Some day somebody's gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don't you know?
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your wayIf you hold on for one more day yeah
If you hold on

Don't you know things can changeT
hings'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day,
If you hold on
Can you hold on
Hold on baby
Won't you tell me now
Hold on for one more day
'Cause
It's gonna go your way
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your wayIf you hold on for one more day
Can't you change it this time
Make up your mind
Hold on
Hold on
Baby hold on

my hi-fi's blasting moosic from p98..and right now..mariah carey's screaming at the top of her voice to anytime you need a friend!and it just reminded me of how nice and OLD this song is...

If you're lonely
And need a friend
And troubles seem like
They never end
Just remember to keep the faith
And love will be there to light the way

(Anytime you need a friend)
I will be here
(You'll never be alone again)
So don't you fear
(Even if you're miles away)
I'm by your side
So don't you ever be lonely
Love will make it alright

When the shadows are closing in
And your spirit diminishing
Just remember you're not alone (oooohoh)
And love will be there
To guide you home

(Anytime you need a friend)
I will be here
(You'll never be alone again)
So don't you fear
(Even if you're miles away)
I'm by your side
So don't you ever be lonely
Love will make it alright

If you just believe in me
I will love you endlessly
Take my hand
Take me into your heart
I'll be there forever baby
I won't let go
I'll never let go

Anytime you need a friend
I will be here
You'll never be alone again
So don't you fear
Even if you're miles away
I'm by your side
So don't you ever be lonely
(It's alright)
It's alright
It's alright
Yes
You know it's alright

(Anytime you need a friend)
I will be here
(You'll never be alone again)
So don't you fear
(Even if you're miles away)
I'm by your side
So don't you ever be lonely
Love will make it alright

i took what i thought was a short cut back then..only to realise that i ended up at a dead end with nothing but a huge ditch that i couldn't get across.then i took a detour and i think i am back on track again...and this time i hope i reach my destination.

all of a sudden i feel restricted.i feel like i cannot say what i have on my mind.it's not easy to constantly censor one's own speech just so that other people won't be affected.i wish i had the freedom of speech.
but then again..i can't even lay out my thoughts properly..my mind's a mess...i don't know what to think anymore.maybe i'm better off not thinking.or maybe i should just set my mind on something and work towards achieving that goal.what's the best choice for myself?
its 530am...and i'm spouting rubbish once again.

we are mad...we are mad...WE ARE MAD!!! it's 8am and we are still in engin! we have been here since 1230am doing essays, reports, readings, watching soccer, listening to mp3 and we've been to fong seng three times in the entire night. we've had green tea, coffee, teh peng, starfruit juice, JJ liang cha, red bull, water and now we are just sitting here in a daze waiting for the hour to come when we have to drag ourselves off to our tutorials. we're completley reliving last sem's exams' nightmares..that's it...we are certified insane.

what the fcuk?! seriously...what the fcuk?!...
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my mom sang me a song today...and we laughed till we cried. i'm gonna master it..and sing it to my kids in the future.and its gonna be passed down the generations.and we will all laugh till we cry each time we sing it.it's gonna be our family heirloom!it's our little secret that no one will understand!..not unless u master cantonese =)

some pics that i look like an idiot in....

water runs dry - boyz II men

We don't even talk anymore
And we don't even know what we argue about
Don't even say I love you no more
Cause sayin' how we feel is no longer allowed

Some people will work things out
And some just don't know how to change

Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We might watch our whole lives pass us by
Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
Don't do it baby

Now they can see the tears in our eyes
But we deny the pain that lies deep in our hearts
Well maybe that's a pain we can't hide
Cause everybody knows that we're both torn apart

Why do we hurt each other
Why do we push love away

Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We might watch our whole lives pass us by
Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
Don't do it baby

my sis made me get a long lecture from my dad about "caring" and "showing concern" about the people around me this morning. and i opened my eyes damn big and gave her a terrible glare and she returned the "beautiful" look i gave her with her best smile.

well... i always talk about "how we tend to take the people closest to us for granted". and i know i am guilty of that too.but it's selective.i dare say i do not take my family for granted...only some people in the family.i know i should be bothered about them.but i put too much blame on them for what's happening that it's holding me back from showing them concern.the anger in me has resulted in me not giving two hoots about them.i should be feeling guilty, but currently i am not.

so until the day i get rid of that anger in me.i'm still really not going to care much.and maybe..one day i'll wake up to realise that i too did not cherish what i had until it's too late.

there goes my goal to be a better person....

people have been telling me how boring and dry CLOSER is...how its all about sex and infidelity.but i do not agree.i think it's a very very nice movie. and i totally loved it. it's a movie that makes you think about love. about cheating on your partner.about marriage.about sex.about everything that a relationship encompasses.

i'm amused at how intelligent the doctor is and how he was able to manipulate people through their weaknesses.how he did not have to use brute force to get back at people.how he just used WORDS to hurt a person real badly.i felt sad after listening to everything that natalie portman said.the love and hurt that her words contained were all very true.happy that selfish jude law was left with nothing in the end..which was what happened to him in ALFIE too.and i agree that people like julia roberts who appear strong on the outside actually are really weak inside.

and then i thought about the people around me.and i found people around me who were similar to the characters of the movie.i'm not sure if that's good or bad.but two things came to my mind after the show:believe in karma.and really open your eyes and cherish what you have before its too late.

and...three sentences i'll remember forever.......
hello stranger...
sit on my face fcukboy......
wear my wet knickers!
HAHAHAHA...FREAKING SICK!!

once upon a time in my life
i had a sweet little fairytale going on...
it was fun and full of fantasy.
then one day the wicked witch from the west came down..
and cast an evil spell with her wand
cast me into a ditch full of tears and lies..
she totally wrecked my life..
and now i live in fear and sadness
which might one day turn into madness
and hence its a fairytale no more.

right now..i wanna whine about my hands that are turning rough from the dishes that i have to wash and the clothes that i have to wash and the floor that i have to clean and the room that i have to dust.i hate household chores.household chores are not made for me.and that's what every other person claims too.but at the end of the day we still have to get our ass down to doing it.unless we are freaking rich and have truckloads of money and houseful of maids.

so u think having a houseful of maids helps to relieve you of stress?i say bullshit.it causes more stress.why?because these people are as farked up as the rest of the world too.instead of just doing their bloody household chores.they have to stir some dumb trouble.they have MAID POLITICS.i say what the fuck.just stick to your bloody cleaning or whoever you have to take care of and stop stirring uneccessary trouble.don't believe me?go to my house and check it out.

i have a freaking sleeping problem.i sleep at 5am and i wake up at 12.or whatever time it is that is 15 mins before my lesson.and i rush to the toilet to shower and run to the bus stop to catch the isb.and run to class.and am 10 mins late.if not i don't turn up for class at all.i'm screwed up.

what's wrong with this world?what's wrong with people?have they got no freaking brains?!do their brains and mouths not work together?do our brains no longer control our mouths?!everyone should just turn mute i swear.then maybe we'll have world peace.because WORDS have the highest potential to HURT and CAUSE TROUBLE.so to all those who go off speaking without thinking..go get some fucking brains bitches and assholes.

and i bet you are all thinking the same of me now.

oh.congrats to all who did well for your As and Os

last night i had a dream..a beautiful dream.
i dreamt we were kids playing on a beach.
with the sun high up in the sky
and the big waves rushing up the shore..
we were playing catching and hide-n-seek
full of innoncence.. without sorrows or worries
we were laughing and having a time of our lives
enjoying the moment..and not bothered about what tomorrow might bring...

..........and then i woke up in shock...
and i suffered a bigger shock...
i was late for class.
happiness seems to always be shortlived.

i have tonsillitis - which is the inflammation of the tonsils...duh.
so now i can hardly swallow..and there's a freaking lump in my throat and it's constantly giving me a headache or should i say migraine.
but...still i went to eat prata just now.
the penicillin's just killing me. it's giving me major hunger pangs, and i think i'm gonna suffer from gastric pain. my stomach's gonna eat itself out.

right now...i really don't care if i die...because insanity's catching up, and i don't want to go crazy.