should i make every post a different colour?? nah i don't think so...looks so idiotic

now...for some advice on cheap buys...
if u want cheap and good underwear...buy buttons underwear..they are the lowest cut underwear around...3 for 10 bucks...HAHA
if u want cheap cds...go to Gramophone at specialist centre...itz at least 3 bucks cheaper than HMV and CD-rama...and 1 buck cheaper than Sembawang
if u want a reasonable priced and filling meal...go to subway and buy a foot-long sandwich and share it with as many ppl...err do it according to how hungry u are of course
if u want cheap slippers...go to nus forum...5 bucks per pair..and they look like havaianas

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humans are selfish and greedy creatures
only caring about themselves
never satisfied
always digging up and holding on to the past...
never able to move on
always wanting more when they already have a lot
when will we ever be satisfied?

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the day it happens...is the day i'll walk away

good bye. good luck.

parousia tonight was great! been a long time since i went for their gig...err jerm and skive were...haha...i dunno wad to say...
anyway...the full band was present tonight..and for once i heard the rock version of EXCHANGE...and itz much more catchy than the acoustic one..DUH!
but anyway..it was super nice as usual...wooaaa...woooaaa...woooaaaa

it's an unfair exchange
and i can't fathom why
You're so willing to
accept my sorrows
it's an unequal trade
for Your inexpicable joy

haha i copied down the lyrics when they were flashed on the screen! but anyway..parousia also sang THE REASON by hoobastank...and it's the first time i realised how nice the lyrics were..been singing along all the while..but never payed attention to the meaning of the lyrics...brainless mouthing of words..

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

anyway we hung ard after the performance and sy and i teamed up against jin and hobz for a game of table soccer..may i please say we suck?! haha..we lost to jin and hobz...16-10 =( BUT...no sweat...we'll beat them the next time round!

wo de ming zi shi sian hua...ying wei wo hen sian....

goodness...going crazy from boredom...i dunno wad to do =(
SHOULD be studying...but i have declared tonight as R&R night!...i deserve it! haha...
life's so boring i don't even know what to blog abt!

ok...back to my wrong moves...i swear i am a freaking psychic! coz moves 9 and 10 really occurred! haha
i woke up at 1120...and only left pgp at 1145..i had to rush like mad to hand up my essay...peggy teo sure means business when she said tt itz due at 12pm! i took 5 mins to run from biz ad to as6 to STAPLE my paper..and ran back to as1 to hand it up! i reached at exactly 12! PHEW!

i've been wanting to say this...but i keep forgetting to! my clustermates this sem are such nice ppl! they are all so friendly! i TALK to them! ...that makes me friendly too! HAHA! ok anyway...yes they are really very nice ppl..they offer me dessert...n they say gd morning n gd night to me everytime i see them in the toilet..haha! ok cheap thrill..well even the indian cleaning lady is friendly! how pleasant!? ...but erm...not to be bitchy...but my neighbour's room is a bit smelly...and the smell floats into my room =( and my air wick is not working anymore...sob

1000 wrong moves!

come on..guess wad time is it now?? itz freaking 5.43am!
eyes closing. nose leaking. brain fried. essay COMPLETED!
i'm finally done with ge2206..that's it..yet one more down..now i am left with som..i have to finish it by next week...if not i am really dead.

i've been making many wrong moves since last night..

1. i slept at 4am the night before...n i went for icm tut like a blardee zombie
2. i happily ate at genki sushi like there was no tmr..and ended up with a bill of 16 plus bucks..i think i had gold for dinner by the way
3. i slept on my right side for half an hr and ended up with an aching arm!
4. i took that stupid nap and ended up with a runny nose for the rest of the night
5. i went to take a bath at 1am and caused my nose to start leaking again when it had already stopped
6. that stupid bath made me sleepy...and i couldn't continue with my essay for half an hr
7. i did not read the instructions for my essay and i had to reprint my cover page 4 times
8. sitting here and blogging when i should be sleeping...i'm crazy!

i foresee myself making these wrong moves tmr...
9. waking up late and hence i'll hand up my essay late
10. stoning during ge2218 lecture
11. sleeping the rest of the afternoon away and then i'll be wide awake for the rest of the night
12. start watching OC when i should be doing my work :P

ok...enough said...i better hit the sack...if not moves 9 and 10 will really come true! and then i'll really be screwed!

oh...by the way...have i mentioned that I AM A FREAKING PSYCHIC?? and jw's haunting me...no sorry...us!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FF!!!

harpie burpday ff!! u are one year older once again! so stop being such a spoilt brat! haha...kidding la...anyway..what comes after sweet 16??horror 17?? i don't know wad...but HAPPY BIRTHDAY! i dunno wad else to say...haha...ok one more yr and u can qualify for m18 movies and clubbing...so in the mean time...don't break any laws..hah!hope u had a splendid celebration today...and that u are pleased with ur presents! (so...where's my F.I.R. cd?????)...oh and LAFF YOU! haha!

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the only thing good abt saturday was joan of arc...it's really a pretty brilliant show...although joan was a tad bit too psychotic..but the scene where she started asking the Lord to not abandon her was really sad...milla jovovich is a pretty good actress..she managed to obtain a mixed expression of hope and determination within disappointment and despair in that scene...which by the way made me tear..haha..sucker(y the hell am i insulting myself!?)

my sis ff celebrated her 17th birthday today...but i think she celebrated her 70th birthday more like it...who the hell gets buddha jump over the wall and sharksfin for her 17th birthday!? and she asked for shou mian and shou bao...she's really a grandmother i must say...haha...but oh well...if it weren't for her birthday..i wouldn't have gotten to enjoy the feast! :p

so..despite an utterly boring saturday...i had a splendid sunday...coz i got to buy a new pair of reeboks for 70 bucks..how cheap is that?! and my sis got a new pair of nike dunks for her bday...now i must plan ways to cheat her into letting me wear them! *hint* saw a very lovely pair of lacoste shoes, that's on offer...and i think i shall save up for them..i hope they will still be ard by the time i manage to save up tt sum of money!

sigh...long week ahead...can't wait for fri...i'll be done with 2206 proj by then

you never realised the damage that you have done

you brought me so far...and dropped me in the dumps
you shoved me aside..like a forgotten book
never realising how much you have hurt me..
you went on with your life...while i tried hard to pick up mine

i'm trying my best..but i can never do it
the words you said cut through my heart...
but yet you never realised the damage you have done

the tears that i've cried...are enough to fill a river
tear ducts gone dry...heart pierced beyond recognition
when will they ever heal?
would i ever learn to love again?

i thought you were the one...but it was a huge mistake
now i can't learn to accept anymore
for fear that history would repeat itself
you never realised the damage that you have done

all the things you said
all the things you did
did they not mean anything at all?

skeptical as i was...i slowly began to see that they might be real
but just as i began to...you shattered all my hopes
and now my doors are closed...forever
you never realised the damage that you have done

congratulations to myself...i can finally say that i am done with my ge2218 project! sigh...1 down and 3 more to go...when will this ever end?? i just printed out 3 journals with a total of 4000 plus words ...yes..these are the useless things that we spend our time on...i certainly do not feel that i have gained some form of knowledge from completing these 3 journals in the course of 10 weeks..

22 days to exams...very good...and i am no where near starting my revision...i'm screwed...i still have 2 more end-term tests coming up...splendid...they both fall on the same day...i suddenly wish i was dead!

it's ironic how i don't go for any SOM lectures..and yet it is the only module that i know stuff about...it's time i admit that i am absolutely clueless as to what i have been studying this semester...i feel like my mind is completely blank...or maybe the stuff are just somewhere at the back of my head..and i need some time to gather them together...

4 weeks to exams...6 weeks to the end of the semester...time passes too quickly in NUS...i'll graduate in no time...and wonder what the hell did i do in the past 3 years at the end of it all..

it's disgusting that it's near 4am (i have a tut at 10) and i'm still up doing work(was!)...but it's consoling that i am not the only one...haha..and i'm glad that there still are people online to entertain me...my current entertainer...oska!

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if no one read my blog...i will bitch to the end of the world about some people...i mean seriously i have the freedom to say what i want right...but then well it's just not good i guess...it's not healthy for ...........

plus...who needs more enemies and trouble when life is already so full of shit?!

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try as we might...it will never be the same anymore

no matter how you put it behind you...it will still remain there...and will constantly haunt you..

so grit your teeth...and withdraw your claws...

6 hours in the sun. 3 hours of netball. a swollen, pig-trotters like ankle. a burnt face. and a soleless pair of sport shoes.

that is exactly what i did today, and what i got at the end of the day....but nonetheless..i sure did have fun! it may be pretty boh-liao to pay 2 bucks to join the arts open...and play in netball matches where the refree didn't know the rules or where the score-keeper didn't keep scores properly... but it sure was something different from the usual stuff that i did every sat! the only bad part is that...i have a face that's as black as a bangla now. sigh...there goes all my hard work of staying out of the sun's path.

well..sadly..OUTRAGEOUS us didn't win the miserable top prize (and also the one and only prize) of 60 bucks =(

oh yes! i finally have my egg-shaped fridge!! it's how cool! i can now have chilled coke in my room! yay! oh and the fridge has blue lights on the outside...wah...it'll look how nice in the dark...actually then again..it might look eerie :s

while stonning(as usual) the other day...i suddenly thought of this transexual whom i see everyday.and i suddenly wondered..why did she...he...she...he...err ok she...want to change her sex? what's so good about being a woman? then i suddenly thought of something..being a transexual gives u the power of behaving, feeling and thinking(partially) like a woman..and yet on the other hand still be able to think like a man. so you can be both a bitch and a jerk at the same time. u'll be able to manipulate men in the way they do to women...and let them have a taste of wad if feels to be treated the same way that they treat other women..and of course manipulate men in the way that women do to men! now...how cool is that?! a 100% woman can definitely never be able to do tt..coz she can never figure out how a man thinks or functions...but...a transexual can...because she was once a man! plus she gets to enjoy the best of both worlds...having dated women in the past...and now being able to date men. wow.

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the wonders of the IU parking system....

people with bad estimation skills, short arms or short bodies...no longer have to fret! gone are the days that u have to feel like an idiot, while a long row of cars forms behind urs, while u try with all ur might to reach the parking machine to slot ur ticket into. now with much ease and convenience...u can just drive up to the machine..let it scan ur IU and in and out of the car park u go! ta dah!! once again...another round of applause for human intelligence and technology advancements!

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after 8 weeks of being in school...i took the public transport back to pgp for the first time after my weekend "break". while walking back to pgp...i suddenly realised something...everyone walking back looked like zombies! all of them were expressionless while they walked in a straight line...slowly following the person in front of them. although the path was filled with people walking back..there wasn't a single sound other than the sound produced by the occasional bus or car passing by. the silence made my hair stand...and for that 5-10 mins that i spent walking back..i was half cursing my ipod for dying out on me at the wrong time...and half humming maroon 5 in my head! if beautiful condo-resort-like pgp weren't right before my eyes...i would really think that those people were on their way back to their prison cells!

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for all those who cannot sleep at 3am on a sunday night...pls tune into channel 8...coz they have decided to broadcast that super eerie zoe tay ghost show..that never fails to freak me out! it's called yi hao xiong zhai...or at least that's how i think those words are read. the song for the show is scary enough to make me pee in my pants...but anyway....being the boh liao person that i am...i'm watching it and scaring the shit out of myself now!i'm sure i can't sleep later....

empty words. broken promises. shattered hopes. disappointment. tears of anger. tears of sorrow.
how do people tolerate and forgive those who cause them so much hurt and sorrows?

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friends....vary in many ways...but can easily fall into two categories...those who bring happiness to ur life...and those who don't.

there are those who only remember you in times of need. are never there when u need them. who don't give a damn if u are dead or alive. who cancel their appt with u a million times and take it for granted that u'll be ok with it. who are inconsiderate...like only letting u know that they can't make it at the last min...leaving u stranded and clueless. who can't be bothered to listen to you. who suddenly disappear from your life..like as though they never existed in the first place...or rather..you never existed before.who do not appreciate the things u do. who make u feel like as though u are inviting God to come down from heaven..each time u ask them out. who make promises they never keep. who say things they never mean. they're right next to u, and yet they don't seem to be present. the list goes on...and they don't even realise how much hurt they have caused u coz of their insensitivity.

then there are those who bring so much happiness that they seem to be a gift from heaven. they message to ask how you are doing even though the last time they saw you was a day ago. they remember the slightest details about you. they know the number of days that they haven't seen you...and tell you how much they miss you. they bother to come all the way down to where you are the moment they know that you need a shoulder to cry on or someone to talk to. they do small little things...like buying u, u're favourite sweet..just to show tt they care and to make you smile. they only bring u laughter.. and never tears.they are always there for you.they do not forget ur existence at the snap of a finger.no empty words.no broken promises. eternal happiness.

now...ask urself...which kinda friend are you??

this has been a pretty good weekend! i feel refreshed and energized...i THINK i am ready for the week ahead.....i am sure i can make it thru the proj meeting with miss-whine-a-lot...i promise to control my hands and not strangle her halfway through the meeting...HAHA!

call me biased or wadeva la huh...but i hate girls who whine...act cute and vulnerable...or constanly ACT pathetic just so tt guys will pay attention to them(ok i accept once in a while..but not constantly)...and since i am on tt topic...i also hate guys who like those kinda girls...pathetic buncha losers...but anyway...according to the many whom i've "interviewed"....apparently they like these kinda girls because..it makes them feel macho...HAHHAHAA...PUKE!

ok...enough bitching...

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i just found out tt the friend whom i used to stand next to during assembly in pri sch...and with whom i used to have a "see who can successfully irritate each other first" contest...is getting married and she's gonna buy a flat with her fiance...

which suddenly made me wonder...WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE????

there she is...working and planning her marriage...and here i am studying in some pathetic local university...wondering if i'll ever get a job after i graduate (oh...i don't even know what's my ambition by the way...) and whether i'll have to join the nunnery?!

i think wad lawrence leong said last sem is true..."the longer u stay in an academic institution...the more immature u get...look at the hello kitty pencil cases tt some of u are still carrying!!" ok...i only agree with him on tt immature pt...not the hello kitty pt...i hate hello kitty by the way...

i suddenly hear this voice ringing in my head "WAKE UP YOUR IDEA!!"...and i think i really have to...sigh...time to sit down and seriously think about my future.

my dad asked me today if i intend to work after i grad with a BASIC degree...or do i intend to further my studies...and i told him...i'll decide when tt time comes...now i'm suddenly digusted with myself for giving him that answer...i should have thought carefully about it...

but well...i think i have made up my mind for now...i'll go work and earn some money to pay for my future education...i think my dad's bank is running low...and by then i'd be a tad bit too old to be living off my parents eh??

yet another week has passed..... had a 5 days break last week...which started on sunday by the way.....how idiotic can nus be??? tt break was as good as none...bcoz i spent 5 days in the hostel doing all the horrid geog and soci essays which were due on mon! but now tt they are done...i can relax for a bit...before i start on the next 3 assignments :(

sch this week's boring...spent all my days either in the lib or in tuts and lects...my enthusiasm for sch has dropped to zero over the past few weeks and is currently negative...i dread sch...i don't have the mood to go for lectures anymore..in fact ...i only went for one lecture this week...HAH!

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isn't it funny tt the more u detest a person the more they seem to appear infront of u? i guess the chinese saying "yuan jia lu zhai" is really true....i keep seeing ppl whom i can't stand...and they appear at places i least expect them to...

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itz fri and i'm back home...it must be because i miss home or i suddenly hate staying in the hostel...i think it might be the latter...but well..i'm not sure yet...oh maybe if i get my fridge i'll love staying in the hostel!

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do old friends get forgotten when new friends are found? i think so

i've been spending quite a lot of time catching up with ppl tt i haven't seen or talked to in a long time...and i'm quite happy tt i'm doing it.. i suddenly realised how much i miss them...the next bunch of ppl i want to catch up with wld be my sec sch mates!

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i think i've made up my mind...i'm working on it....and i'm slowly getting there...but itz gonna take a lot of time and many other unwanted things will follow too