since i'm at it...i might as well continue....

my favourite comic strips...







the innocence of a child..the importance of frienship...the strong bond between best friends...the retardedness of calvin...the intelligence tt a child may sometimes possess...the mischief of a child..the "hatred" between little boys and girls...childhood playtimes...all incorporated in one story...bill watterson is amazing..and calvin's a cute little ass...hahaha

....me totally agree....!!!

a normal day starts at 00:00 and ends at 23:59
my day starts at 12:00 and ends at 07:00
my clock's screwed up.

...my bestest friend of 11 years!!
yet another year has been added to the number of years we've known each other! though we've drifted apart on many occassions along this long road that we've walked together...i'm glad that the friendship has never disappeared and that we're close again now! we definitely have a lot more about each other to learn in the coming years...but there's absolutely no rush to do that for this friendship will never be lost! =)
may this year be a fresh start in your life...and all the horrid events be cast away!

ok...i'm just utterly bored...and i can't get down to doing my work...haiz...


the absolutely hot atomic kittens whom i was crazy over a few weeks back....

the hottest dude...whose show's on ch U on mondays and tuesdays...haha...

what i'll be doing at the end of the week if i don't get my ass down to doing my work NOW!

oh! desperate housewives has started again in the US!!now i have something to watch again! wooohoo!!

it's depressing how the songs i used to sing to you...are what you sing to others....

my korean feast on a wednesday night

• one pot of ginseng chicken soup
• one plate of bbq beef
• one plate of spring onion pancake
• many plates of kimchi, veg, bean sprouts, fermented beancurd, chilli horse radish, ikan billis, radish...i endured the chilli today which resulted in me having my tongue hanging out most of the time...just to eat the kimchi *slurp*
• one cup of hot tea
• one bowl of sweet korean rice

a reward from my dad for my hard work! whhheeee!!!!

worst nightmare came true

those who know me well..will know tt i absolutely DETEST LIZARDS! i only have two reactions when i see a a lizard...i either freeze on the spot...or...i run so fast and so suddenly that u will wonder what the hell happened! my mom and maid never fail to get a good laugh out of my stupid reaction whenever there's a lizard at home...i will just scream for my maid the "lizard slayer" and i will run as far away as possible!

anyway...my utter worst nightmare came true 2 nights ago...i discovered a disgusting lizard hiding behind my cupboard while i was cleaning my room!!! the moment i saw it...i gave a big yelp and leaped onto my bed and froze there for what seemed like eternity....until i managed to pluck up enough courage to creep to my table to get my phone to call for help!! ...and so i dialled the number of the one who has been fighting lizards for almost every single night for the past week ....cootie...and begged for help!now...mr cootie tried instructing me on what to do to chase it out of my room...but...no way was i moving from where i was!!! so finally he had to come all the way up to level 6 to get rid of it for me! hahahahaha...thanks anyway!

i think i made a pretty big commotion because after that my easily excitable neighbour came to my room to find out what happened before...i must admit she's pretty funny...because she said to me in chinese..." then ni de peng you ba ta chase dao na li le?? shi bu shi hen yuan?? hui bu hui zai hui lai ah?? hui bu hui jing lai wo de fang jian?!"...haha...she's a kok..then she started telling me about all her lizard adventures -_-"

haiz...gross...i've been constantly checking my room to make sure that another does not enter my room ever since!!

last night was great! i finally met up with kunies, mel and hobs after ages ...though it was just a very short dinner...coz i was late..hehe..anyway..hobs and i headed down to phuture after that to kill time while waiting for peach to finish work...and phuture last night was super good! thank you hobs for getting those passes! they played the flava cd! woohoo...and i had a great time drinking and dancing...how ironic...i was just doing my e-learning report before that on alochol consumption and its negative effects...haha..siao. the best part of it was that...it was totally unplanned, and in the end more and more people turned up...like horsey and ayy!

but the night wasn't so good for people like ayy who hadn't gone in eons and of all things..she lost her hp....poor her..she looked so sad..eh poor thing face! hahaha... and for me at the start when some asshole of an indian stole my new and untouched bottle of beer! the people who took her hp and my beer shld just go burn in hell!
anyway...hope all of u had as much fun as i did!! oh..someone was being naughty again right hobs?? haha...ok no more clubbing till after exams!

anyway...which mad person goes clubbing..and then reaches home at 5am and does her essay till 7am?!!? me! i'm crazy! that's what i did! after i got back...i was so wide awake..i decided to do my essay till 730..and my mind has never been as clear nor have i ever been as focussed as i was then! so i think...all of you should just go drink till you are high...dance till your legs break...and return home to bathe and eat then do your essays! i'm sure you will churn out a pretty good piece of work! haha.

have we ever stopped to wonder if the person whom we are calling weird...is actually thinking of us as weirdos too?

daily report

bahasa test was horrendous...

• i have no idea what pakaianan did Santi and William membeli in Robinsons...so i anyhow crapped up some rubbish for them. i did their shopping for them.
• i have no idea how to jalan to Toni's house...so i came up with my own directions
• i have no idea how much the durians cost...and what was the result of the "fight" between the durian penjual and William...so i came up with my own prices too.
• and i happily spelled kamar as kamir for the entire essay when i so clearly know that toilet is called kamar kecil ...hence bedroom should be called kamar tidur and not kamir tidur..whatever kamir is...

on a lighter note....

• i'm officially known as the pisang penjual in class thanks to yuan lin the pisang pembeli
• rachel and i laughed like mad coz yj was happily telling a story when we were supposed to be doing the exercise and she didn't realise that ibu was standing next to her for the longest time ever and listening to the story...
• and i'm still as irritated with that e-learning guy as ever.
• and candice the tutor said this to me : "WOW...what an interesting watch you have...FOSSIE." and the only reply i could give was..err...heh heh heh...coz i did not dare to correct her...lest she decides to minus some marks from our project!=)

seriously...who gives a damn about Miss Singapore Universe?? why the big Hoo-Haa over it?? it's the only advertisement i've been hearing throughout the whole 5 hours that i've just spent on watching tv (omg...i watched tv for 5 hrs?!?!?!) why do people even bother taking part anyway? siao.they will never make it past the first round in the Miss Universe contest.seems like every year there will be one contestant that i know.all these people have nothing else better to do. i bet they are joining it for all the free massages, spas, facials and what nots.

it's embarrassing hearing these so called teen ambassadors of Singapore and the world go on stage and say things like..."FANTABULOUS" (courtesy of mama roach)..."Singapore...CHANGI!!"(courtesy of that representative some years back...)..."Many people say i look like Jean Danker"(courtesy of that cjc girl who looks like jean danker...) ...seriously...who the hell cares that you look like jean danker...and wtf is FANTABULOUS?!...CHANGI is not a freaking state..we are but an island...who the hell knows where or what CHANGI is?!

...and they say that Miss Singapore Universe is not a merely a beauty pageant filled with bimbos...but one where the "pretty" and intellectual young Singaporean girls are chosen to represent Singapore in this prestigious international competition....i'm sure.....

ok..i'm too bitchy..not like i am any smarter or prettier than them..but well...u know what i mean...sorry for being bitchy...and anyway...all i wish for is world peace.

bahasa indonesia overdose

my sis just asked me why did i choose to learn bahasa indonesia the other day...she says it sounds bad...when people speak bahasa indonesia...they sound like this... PRIAK PRIAK PRIAK... and it sounds like they are clucking...and i disagreed!

but.......after listening to the diaologue in the courseware for the whole of last night and the past 3 hrs...YES THEY SOUND THAT WAY!!! and i'm sick from listening to the dialogue..i feel like puking now...like as though i'm not grossed out enough....i have a listening test later *urk*

advice: do not listen to the courseware dialogue for 7 hours in a row...you will feel nauseous!

i made a shocking discovery last night...
i don't know to laugh or not...but right now...it's really freaking hilarious!!!!*gulp*

argh...blogger has been down the entire night!...for me only...so frustrating!

right now..i'm a fat and contented girl..because i have the company of my favourite subway white chip macadamia nut cookies! :)
had dinner with ck the repairman just now...and he successfully repaired my printer, and laptop (although its a bit cranky now after getting rid of all tt excess rubbish...), but refused to repair my cooler for me :S
well...we established that i can be the president of the fatty bom bom club, judging from the way i have been stuffing myself..and i even made him walk slowly because.............................................. i was too fat and couldn't walk fast enough...*gulp*

heh i successfully tempted him to stay in the hostel next semester...next sem seems like its gonna be pretty fun...seems like quite a number of people are gonna stay in the hostel...mj and ck...and viv n jin are trying to stay too...wooohoo! ...more company!

sigh..alright...back to bahasa..hope i pass tmr's test!

to you, the violent one...quit being violent or i will report to the police tt you are a friend abuser!

tuesday nights

tuesday nights are nights for extreme studying and revision.
they are nights when we stay up late...till 7am usually...rushing projects or studying for tests.
yes...tuesday nights are those nights where hardworking people push themselves to their limits..all for the sake of doing work.

its 4am...bahasa indonesia test is THE work that has to be done...and i'm just talking rubbish once again.

this week has been spent shuttling between the wake, school and work, rushing endless projects and presentation.and taking part in leg and back breaking prayer exercises... everyone's totally worn out...we all collapsed today after the funeral.it's over...it's shocking how we take 80 over years walking the long journey of life...learning lessons and skills every single moment, experiencing joy and sadness, enduring hardship and enjoying good times...and many more other things...and all it takes to physically disappear from the face of earth - leaving behind weeping loved ones who will definitely remember your existence - is a mere 5 mins.

tomorrow and the day after's gonna be yet another pretty long day...

to all my friends who've been messaging me to ask how i am and who've been ever so supportive, and to all who came for the wake...thank you very much!am really grateful and touched! =)

to all those whom i'm doing proj with and i missed like all the meetings the past week, and have been submitting my stuff late to you all..i'm really sorry...i'll try to finish it all by next week!

life's so unpredictable and full of uncertainties. just last night..hil was asking me how my grandma was, and i said she seems better now cos she's out of the hosp...and i was reading mel's tag (thanks for your concern babe!)..and now my grandma has passed away.well she passed away this morning at 2am while i was still wide eyed and studying in smu, and no one told me till 11 am.i was sleeping and my mom called me to tell me..and i thought i dreamt it all when i woke up..so i called to double check.suddenly death seems so scary,it comes when u least expect it. =(

when mel's grandma passed away..she wrote a long entry about how close she used to be with her grandma and all..i wish i could do the same.but seriously..there's nothing i can write.we weren't close (only physically)..even though she was in my house like almost every week in the past and has been staying in my house for the past 2 years.so all i can say is..i'm glad she's resting in peace and her suffering's finally over.

the very "hardworking" people of nus who crashed smu for the night....

eayy the abuser...


saltz the abused..


oska the most hardworking one of the lot...the one who was quite off form once again...HAHA!

...at the end of it all...what have we achieved?

i won't be there - atomic kitten

my latest fav song.

I've been looking for the girl that I once knew
The girl with nothing to lose
Right before she met you
I've been telling her everything that I've learned since then
Never gonna make them
Same mistakes again...and baby

You know, and I know
You held on, I let go
Now is the time to move on

Let tomorrow be a new day
I'll be running from the heartache
And I wont be there no no
I wont be there no no
As the months turn into new years
Wont be crying any new tears
I wont be there no no
I wont be there no no
Hear me say oh , no no never ever
Oh no baby I wont be there no no
I wont be there...

Looking back I remember when I
Used to sit and cry
Every day, all night
I'm telling you everything that you knew has changed
I'll be turning a new page
All the memories erased...cos baby
You know, and I know
You held on, I let go
Now is the time to move on

Let tomorrow be a new day
I'll be running from the heartache
And I wont be there no no
I wont be there no no
As the months turn into new years
Wont be crying any new tears
I wont be there no no
I wont be there no no

I wont be having bad dreams
Wont be having regrets
Tearing at the seams
They're the things I will forget

Baby when tomorrow comes, you're gonna be the only one
If you'd loved, if you'd have cared
Then babe I would be there...

Hear me say oh , no no never ever
Oh no baby
I wont be there no no
I wont be there..

Hear me say oh , no no never ever
Oh no baby
I wont be there no no
I wont be there...

Let tomorrow be a new day
I'll be running from the heartache
I won't be there no no
I won't be there no no
As the months turn into new years
Won't be crying any new tears
I won't be there no no
I won't be there no no...

oh man...i can't stand myself! i am a pig!!..there hasn't really been one night that i've gone to sleep without having supper first =( soon i'll qualify to pin the badge tt says "i am in shape.round is a shape." on my bag! and not like i've been exercising much this sem..i've only gone running twice! terrible..terrible!

my mom called me while i was having macs just now and she said.."what?! u're eating all that fattening food??? u better watch your weight..if not soon you'll go out of shape...and ur cheeks will be come so fat u can switch off the phone with them!"..errr haha...hey someone..doesn't this sound familiar??? HAHAH!!...and right now i'm waiting for cootie to bring supper back to me :S

so anyway...i got back my bahasa indonesia test results today..i think i did ok...err guess i am pretty ok with it...although i am constantly talking rubbish in class.i think ibu knows i talk cock all the time..tt's why she's forever making me answer her qns! basketball..and i have to think for like ages..before answering...and she has a knack for catching me when i'm daydreaming! bah!

jin was telling me abt this idoitic guy and what he said about people who blog, today...he said people who blog are egoistic...damn him.thinks he's so blardee smart.tsk...he and his stupid puberty project...he can't even spell menstruation properly..."manstration"...wtf!he's been condemned by us for calling our alcohol project boring...i'm sure watching videos tt show body hair is much more interesting than alcohol concoctions. asshole.

ok...i'm done with my..."that's how my day went" entry...gonna study...else i don't have to sleep anymore =(

dirty smelly me

i should really be showering...but i just have to blog before going to do that...
currently...i smell of milo,coffee,ketchup,dettol,pi-pa gao,bath foam,facial cream and i dunno what else...and it totally stinks!

just came back from TH, and we had a crazy time sabo-ing Luther and smearing all that gross stuff on him..coz its his birthday today.haha..but it seemed like as though it was Grace's bday, coz she was constantly being attacked! the TH people had to con him out of his room...coz the smart fella hid all his shoes in his room and locked himself in there...all prepared for war..i must say!but they still managed to con him out of his room, and that was when hell broke loose! i swear..i have never seen people run that fast in their lives before..after the guys released lut...they all scuttled back into their rooms and locked all their doors...and it seemed like TH was deserted!Dawn, PJ and i tried to seek refuge in Hil's room, but he was so fast he caught us while we were fighting with that darn door stopper and we had to surrender to him!the both of them managed to escape but i got smeared with all that gross stuff in the end..unsatisfied that hil was still spotless...i managed to con her out of the room...and she got it 10 times worse than me!hahaha...so anyway the highlight of the night...the piece of cake that was stuck to grace's head!omg! absolutely hilarious!! hil and i laughed till we almost died!!

haha...so cool...how come there wasn't such fun stuff while i was staying there??=( it seems like the fun runs away from all the places i move to =( alright...now i can go shower. yet another night gone by without any work being done! -_-"

to: my good pals!!

this entry is specially dedicated to: two of my very good pals...hil and yj! =)

mondays are just total bummers. lessons from 10-8 or 12-8 ain't a joke.do not mess with such a timetable i tell ya!...so anyway..i was having my usual monday blues today, and feeling absolutely tired during all lectures...then while i was going through the last 2 hours of lessons for the day...two very funny people brightened up my day!my phone vibrated non stop, and i thought there was something absolutely wrong with it...so i opened it to check what was up...and it seemed like i was retrieving some mms from someone...in fact...i was receiving FOUR MMSes...after i got all of them...i opened them up...and i started laughing to myself in tutorial!i think joan and kim who were seated next to me seriously thought i was mad..and ibu kept looking in my direction...so anyway...here's what i received....


(err...i edited it of course...)

haha so anyway...thank you the both of you...for brightening up my dull monday! =)

i hate going to hospitals.especially the ward full of old people.it just makes me depressed.when i'm there i feel like closing my eyes and pretending that i cannot see how all the old people are suffering.it just makes me even more worried about growing old.i don't want to be bedridden when i'm old...or contract any awful disease =(

my dad says my grandma cannot hold on for much longer..and her condition's pretty critical...every phone call makes us jump, and everyone's prepared for the worse...but when i went to visit her this evening, she was just getting better.there's some kind of virus going round the entire ward, because most of the patients were having a fever.though she may not be on my "favourite people" list..i felt sad looking at her.at how half of her body's swollen, and how she couldn't open her left eye.in fact, for the first time in my life,i felt like crying for her.i guess its true that all hatred's forgotten when a person's on his/her deathbed.my dad's in some kinda frenzy, and he seems lost whenever he hears that her condition is getting worse, and he keeps asking "how?".and i told him in the 'softest' manner that i could put it, that its best that she goes, because that's the only way to relieve her from her pain....growing up is tiring...growing old is depressing.

the crappiest bunch of people =)

today was simple but absolutely fun!i laughed so much my eyes disappeared, i gained a ton of wrinkles, and i couldn't breathe properly.
no one can come up with as much rubbish as ck and brian.even clarence had to admit the both of them sure can come up with the most creative shit.ck said i'm left on the shelf and brian said i'm an old hag =( ...idiots!haha...we held up the whole queue at the cashier in taka by asking the lady to gift-wrap the minifridge, which i think she took 20 mins to do, and which becca took a mere 5 seconds to rip apart.i love the way she screamed when she saw it and the way brian had to do it with her...and the ton of rubbish we wrote in the bday card on behalf of sulin and kenny!it just made me laugh even harder!kenny's van is still the bomb..and it never fails to amuse me each time i climb into it!cloven's gonna be 'miss ong' in the future and we're gonna tease her about it till the day she retires!
...we came to a conclusion...20 years down the road...cloven and i will be tai tais...and ck and brian will be errr male tai-tais...though kenny and clarence said they'll try their best to give their wives tai-tai-ish lives, they agree that maybe life will be better if they chose the path that ck and brian are gonna take. HAHA!
my cj band family just RAWKS...we're too insane for anyone to handle!

heard this song on jin's blog...and its super nice...it's from the movie closer...i'm addicted to it now...together with hold on! haha

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

to my bitch of a friend harry:
i'm touched after listening to the song.i don't know what else to say. thank you.. for the listening ear and the advice and the scoldings and the insults..despite being million miles away.haha i know you'll say its weird that i'm so nice all of a sudden..but seriously thank you.

I know this pain
Why do lock yourself up in these chains?
No one can change your life except for you
Don't ever let anyone step all over you
Just open your heart and your mind
Is it really fair to feel this way inside?

Some day somebody's gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don't you know?
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Things'll go your way
Hold on for one more day

You could sustain
Or are you comfortable with the pain?
You've got no one to blame for your unhappiness
You got yourself into your own mess
Lettin' your worries pass you by
Don't you think it's worth your time
To change your mind?

I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and
Break free the chains
Yeah I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and you
Break free, break from the chains

Some day somebody's gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don't you know?
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your wayIf you hold on for one more day yeah
If you hold on

Don't you know things can changeT
hings'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day,
If you hold on
Can you hold on
Hold on baby
Won't you tell me now
Hold on for one more day
'Cause
It's gonna go your way
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your wayIf you hold on for one more day
Can't you change it this time
Make up your mind
Hold on
Hold on
Baby hold on

my hi-fi's blasting moosic from p98..and right now..mariah carey's screaming at the top of her voice to anytime you need a friend!and it just reminded me of how nice and OLD this song is...

If you're lonely
And need a friend
And troubles seem like
They never end
Just remember to keep the faith
And love will be there to light the way

(Anytime you need a friend)
I will be here
(You'll never be alone again)
So don't you fear
(Even if you're miles away)
I'm by your side
So don't you ever be lonely
Love will make it alright

When the shadows are closing in
And your spirit diminishing
Just remember you're not alone (oooohoh)
And love will be there
To guide you home

(Anytime you need a friend)
I will be here
(You'll never be alone again)
So don't you fear
(Even if you're miles away)
I'm by your side
So don't you ever be lonely
Love will make it alright

If you just believe in me
I will love you endlessly
Take my hand
Take me into your heart
I'll be there forever baby
I won't let go
I'll never let go

Anytime you need a friend
I will be here
You'll never be alone again
So don't you fear
Even if you're miles away
I'm by your side
So don't you ever be lonely
(It's alright)
It's alright
It's alright
Yes
You know it's alright

(Anytime you need a friend)
I will be here
(You'll never be alone again)
So don't you fear
(Even if you're miles away)
I'm by your side
So don't you ever be lonely
Love will make it alright

i took what i thought was a short cut back then..only to realise that i ended up at a dead end with nothing but a huge ditch that i couldn't get across.then i took a detour and i think i am back on track again...and this time i hope i reach my destination.

all of a sudden i feel restricted.i feel like i cannot say what i have on my mind.it's not easy to constantly censor one's own speech just so that other people won't be affected.i wish i had the freedom of speech.
but then again..i can't even lay out my thoughts properly..my mind's a mess...i don't know what to think anymore.maybe i'm better off not thinking.or maybe i should just set my mind on something and work towards achieving that goal.what's the best choice for myself?
its 530am...and i'm spouting rubbish once again.

we are mad...we are mad...WE ARE MAD!!! it's 8am and we are still in engin! we have been here since 1230am doing essays, reports, readings, watching soccer, listening to mp3 and we've been to fong seng three times in the entire night. we've had green tea, coffee, teh peng, starfruit juice, JJ liang cha, red bull, water and now we are just sitting here in a daze waiting for the hour to come when we have to drag ourselves off to our tutorials. we're completley reliving last sem's exams' nightmares..that's it...we are certified insane.

what the fcuk?! seriously...what the fcuk?!...
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my mom sang me a song today...and we laughed till we cried. i'm gonna master it..and sing it to my kids in the future.and its gonna be passed down the generations.and we will all laugh till we cry each time we sing it.it's gonna be our family heirloom!it's our little secret that no one will understand!..not unless u master cantonese =)

some pics that i look like an idiot in....

water runs dry - boyz II men

We don't even talk anymore
And we don't even know what we argue about
Don't even say I love you no more
Cause sayin' how we feel is no longer allowed

Some people will work things out
And some just don't know how to change

Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We might watch our whole lives pass us by
Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
Don't do it baby

Now they can see the tears in our eyes
But we deny the pain that lies deep in our hearts
Well maybe that's a pain we can't hide
Cause everybody knows that we're both torn apart

Why do we hurt each other
Why do we push love away

Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We might watch our whole lives pass us by
Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
Don't do it baby

my sis made me get a long lecture from my dad about "caring" and "showing concern" about the people around me this morning. and i opened my eyes damn big and gave her a terrible glare and she returned the "beautiful" look i gave her with her best smile.

well... i always talk about "how we tend to take the people closest to us for granted". and i know i am guilty of that too.but it's selective.i dare say i do not take my family for granted...only some people in the family.i know i should be bothered about them.but i put too much blame on them for what's happening that it's holding me back from showing them concern.the anger in me has resulted in me not giving two hoots about them.i should be feeling guilty, but currently i am not.

so until the day i get rid of that anger in me.i'm still really not going to care much.and maybe..one day i'll wake up to realise that i too did not cherish what i had until it's too late.

there goes my goal to be a better person....

people have been telling me how boring and dry CLOSER is...how its all about sex and infidelity.but i do not agree.i think it's a very very nice movie. and i totally loved it. it's a movie that makes you think about love. about cheating on your partner.about marriage.about sex.about everything that a relationship encompasses.

i'm amused at how intelligent the doctor is and how he was able to manipulate people through their weaknesses.how he did not have to use brute force to get back at people.how he just used WORDS to hurt a person real badly.i felt sad after listening to everything that natalie portman said.the love and hurt that her words contained were all very true.happy that selfish jude law was left with nothing in the end..which was what happened to him in ALFIE too.and i agree that people like julia roberts who appear strong on the outside actually are really weak inside.

and then i thought about the people around me.and i found people around me who were similar to the characters of the movie.i'm not sure if that's good or bad.but two things came to my mind after the show:believe in karma.and really open your eyes and cherish what you have before its too late.

and...three sentences i'll remember forever.......
hello stranger...
sit on my face fcukboy......
wear my wet knickers!
HAHAHAHA...FREAKING SICK!!

once upon a time in my life
i had a sweet little fairytale going on...
it was fun and full of fantasy.
then one day the wicked witch from the west came down..
and cast an evil spell with her wand
cast me into a ditch full of tears and lies..
she totally wrecked my life..
and now i live in fear and sadness
which might one day turn into madness
and hence its a fairytale no more.

right now..i wanna whine about my hands that are turning rough from the dishes that i have to wash and the clothes that i have to wash and the floor that i have to clean and the room that i have to dust.i hate household chores.household chores are not made for me.and that's what every other person claims too.but at the end of the day we still have to get our ass down to doing it.unless we are freaking rich and have truckloads of money and houseful of maids.

so u think having a houseful of maids helps to relieve you of stress?i say bullshit.it causes more stress.why?because these people are as farked up as the rest of the world too.instead of just doing their bloody household chores.they have to stir some dumb trouble.they have MAID POLITICS.i say what the fuck.just stick to your bloody cleaning or whoever you have to take care of and stop stirring uneccessary trouble.don't believe me?go to my house and check it out.

i have a freaking sleeping problem.i sleep at 5am and i wake up at 12.or whatever time it is that is 15 mins before my lesson.and i rush to the toilet to shower and run to the bus stop to catch the isb.and run to class.and am 10 mins late.if not i don't turn up for class at all.i'm screwed up.

what's wrong with this world?what's wrong with people?have they got no freaking brains?!do their brains and mouths not work together?do our brains no longer control our mouths?!everyone should just turn mute i swear.then maybe we'll have world peace.because WORDS have the highest potential to HURT and CAUSE TROUBLE.so to all those who go off speaking without thinking..go get some fucking brains bitches and assholes.

and i bet you are all thinking the same of me now.

oh.congrats to all who did well for your As and Os

last night i had a dream..a beautiful dream.
i dreamt we were kids playing on a beach.
with the sun high up in the sky
and the big waves rushing up the shore..
we were playing catching and hide-n-seek
full of innoncence.. without sorrows or worries
we were laughing and having a time of our lives
enjoying the moment..and not bothered about what tomorrow might bring...

..........and then i woke up in shock...
and i suffered a bigger shock...
i was late for class.
happiness seems to always be shortlived.

i have tonsillitis - which is the inflammation of the tonsils...duh.
so now i can hardly swallow..and there's a freaking lump in my throat and it's constantly giving me a headache or should i say migraine.
but...still i went to eat prata just now.
the penicillin's just killing me. it's giving me major hunger pangs, and i think i'm gonna suffer from gastric pain. my stomach's gonna eat itself out.

right now...i really don't care if i die...because insanity's catching up, and i don't want to go crazy.

maybe its time to turn the tables.

i'm touched...by all who msged me to ask if i was better. be it by phone or online...i feel so loved. and i'm even more touched...because ang ying ying offered to pass me vitamin c tmr. haha...seriously...i'm really touched.i don't know what else to say...thank you all of you =) oh yes...of course my lovely mummy too..who came in to cover me with a blanket and brought water up for me.and my dear FF of a sister who couldn't wait to contract some of my germs so that she could skip school...and who introduced me to the SIMs!!! u are trying to make me not do my homework!!

i really don't think i asked for much....

harry (lim ban teck) just sent me a poem...and it's really the sweetest thing ever...especially since its coming from him...i never knew he could write...and i have to put his full name...because...he said i had to..simple as that. haha!

Heart’s been broken, tears been shed.
For a love that was given but not kept.

No more joy, only pain,
And sadness in the pouring rain.

Time has past, wounds have healed,
Thoughts that hurt now buried and sealed

Nights have gone, dreams been made,
With your image still in my head.

Tried to move on and forget,
But didn’t want to live with this regret.

All I ask is a chance, just one.
To share your burdens as they come.

To be the one you run to when the going gets tough,
And when the world doesn't seem fair enough.

Sharing your happiness, loving your silliness,
Through the years of loneliness.

Promises of love forever and eternal,
Can only be found in the script of a fairytale.

All I can do is hope and pray,
That when my hair turns white and yours turn grey,

We’ll still be holding hands at the end of the day.

btw..don't even think about copying it or doing whatever pirate thing u can with it...because it's HIS poem...i'll chop whoever, who does that!

fatty bom bom's unhappy

it's time to wallow in self-pity.
it's a saturday night...and i'm in the hostel..facing the laptop since 12..trying to get my essay going somewhere...
itz 7pm now...and i'm eating cup noodles for dinner, when normally i should be home with this huge spread shouting out at me from the dinner table
there's not a single soul left in the hostel..and i'm just damn bored...my only other remaining hostel mate's been gone for 3 nights and i have no friends...i'm a loner! :( and i'm gonna turn autistic just like what charlene said...and i'm probably suffering from depression cause i have no one to talk to and i've been in a bad mood since this morning...and when i thought i found someone to cheer me up...it didn't turn out the way i hoped it would.

but.....

my day just got better...because dear jin just called me from candy empire and asked me if i wanted anything. and i'm seriously touched...i "cried"..haha! =) thanx a lot jin! u really made my horrid day much better...just as i was close to tears and close to suffering from insanity (i'm serious..)! now i can't wait for monday to get my jellybeans and lifesavers that i've been waiting for weeks for!

and.....

dear kunies...thanks for last night too! i'm sure if i had stayed in...i'd definitely be in a worse shape now! "closer" next week babe!

i'll never stay in on a weekend ever again....

what do u do when ur carton of milk gets frozen in the intelligent common fridge..and u really have to have ur cereal...but all u have are un-chilled cans of milo?

1. pour ur cereal into a bowl
2. dunk in 5 ice cubes
3. pour in a can of milo....
4. tada!...u have ur cereal!

fatty bom bom's ingenious breakfast recipe.

speaking problem

many people have a serious problem...not knowing when to shut up...some people

1. don't know the principle of listening and not telling
2. are just way too talkative and aren't exactly very entertaining
3. don't know how to keep their thoughts to themselves
4. practise preferential treatment...and give out different comments to different people in the same context(hence are better off not speaking)
5. don't know when to stop making fun of people
6. don't know when their words are hurting others
7. don't know thatwhen people tell them to shut up...they really mean it
8. don't get the hint to shut up when people switch seats coz they talk too freaking much

the first two ...are the two things that totally piss me off currently..i don't deny that i am talkative too...but i think i do keep check of myself constantly...think before you speak.

a relationship between two people is just like a clap.
like they always say...it takes two hands to clap..
you cannot produce a clap with only one hand can you?
when two hands do not come into contact with each other, a clap cannot be produced...just like in a relationship..without two people..one cannot happen.
when one hand tries harder than the other, a dull sound is produced...in a relationship...when one tries harder than the other, it remains dull and stagnant, and is almost pointless.
hence...a good relationship can and will only occur when both parties put in an equal effort...likewise..a resonant clap can only be produced when two hands cooperate.

....so would you choose to be the hand that tries...or the one that refuses to?

finally stepped into zouk after a whole mth!no more clubbing till after exams! :( last night was super fun once again!met loads of people there ...but a few ppl were pretty much gone by the start of the night...haha...once again i got stepped on until my feet were black...horrid girls and their heels..i shall take my revenge one day!

as always...jin's n jean's 'milkshake act' sent me into fits of laughter!!

u know u are high on alcohol(long island tea still sucks!)...when u start talking to someone whom u dislike...but well..i aim to be a better person this yr...so i guess that's a pretty good start!

think i spent most of the time talking and laughing instead of dancing...but it was fun!

disappointed with you.....

poofed!

this week has been ultimately hectic and horrid...
presentation on thurs and fri
and i spent the whole week preparing for them
sleeping at 4am and waking up for classes that last from 10 to 8 are ultimate killers..
i spent most of the daylight hours in school and my waking hours doing work this week...i myself can't believe i survived it all!
i'm totally burnt out...i don't have a single ounce of strength left in me
i can't wait for 2pm tmr...and i'll rest the whole weekend if i can afford it!
the next 10 days are dedicated to my term paper..which i haven't started yet...there goes my hols...:(

i'm glad that i'm not the only one who thinks and feels that way...i found 3 other like minded people today...and it just made my day! i'm happy that i now have people to bitch with, and that i'm not alone in this misery! har har har! so ultimately...u are still the blind fool.

a friend whom i've been missing very much sent a msg to me today to say hello and to ask how i was...i couldn't help but smile like an idiot to myself the moment i saw the sender...i was thrilled!

oc ep 12 is the saddest ever...the oc used to give me hope...but even the oc is giving up on itself...it made me cry...sandy and kirsten...the saddest of all...people watch oc for ryan's and seth's love story or to bitch about marissa (...i do tt too)...i watch it for sandy and kirsten...and i was devastated just now...but nonetheless...tt 45 mins dosage of entertainment made my oh-so-dull day better

it's simple things like these that make my 'down in the dumps' days seem brighter....

ohhh...i'm so damn pissed now i could commit murder!! i was minding my own business and walking along this WIDE path along AS6 to collect notes...when this GIRL walked pass me with her arms swinging WIDELY...and she whacked her bloody watch into mine and cracked the face of my watch!!!!!! what is her fucking problem seriously!??!?!? if i can remember her face...i swear i will bring her to the highest building in nus right now and push her off it!!! if she was wearing shorts and slippers or something...i would have forgiven her...but no! she was fucking wearing a skirt and walking like a man!!! who the hell walks with their arms swinging so widely?! BITCH! to all those who think girls who wear skirts are feminine...i say BULLSHIT!...what the hell! didn't her mother teach her how to walk?! bitch man...seriously bitch! i've worn this watch for the past 5 years and she has to come along and whack it with her freaking cheap watch and break mine! if her watch is a rolex...i'll definitely forgive her...but seriously..judging from the way she walked...i doubt she's able to own one...pay me back my 179 bucks for my watch bitch!!!!

so to YOU!...u are a FUCKING BITCH!!! go and fucking learn how to walk!! who the fuck taught u to walk with ur arms swinging so widely?! and the path was so fucking big why did u have to squeeze next to me and whack my watch?! if you don't know how to walk like a girl..don't dress like one bitch!!! millions of curses to you!!!

and i just realised..she didn't even stop to appologise....SLUT!!

i read the words over and over again...but they just seemed like words and nothing else.i didn't know how to feel...i didn't know what to make of them...i'm lost and trying to find the meaning from them all....

my favourite bunch of people... T3!...short of elise(who was late..), elaine and hilly...

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY MEH-LOH-DEE!!!!!!!
All the Best for the year ahead...and we'll get a big fat A for our jap mass media project!!!hahahha!!

i'm a fatty fatty bom bom...
pigging out has never felt better...
endless supply of peanut butter cookies...pineapple tarts...kueh buloh and rabbit sweets...
cans after cans of orange juice...
abalone, prawns, sea cucumber, stewed mushrooms, sharks fin soup, scallops, big fat whole chickens, juicy big fat whole ducks, huge steamed fish.....
agar-agar, home-made carrot cake, curry chicken, sushi, chicken wings, cereal prawns, fishballs, sotong balls, fried rice, fried noodles, half-boiled eggs, hard-boiled eggs, ching-teng...
yum yum yum!!
big fat ang pows...big fat pockets...big fat bank accounts...KA-CHING!!$$$$

well well...look how cny turned out this year?? pretty good in comparison to the past few years!don't you just feel good when u are prepared for a bad time...but then there's an unexpected turn of events?? now..this is what i like about pessimism...laadeedaa...t3 steamboat tmr...can't wait!!

waves of sadness rushes through her heart...
bringing back the fear of the past...
the fear of falling into depression once again...
putting on a huge smile...she pushes away the thought...
and tries hard to concentrate on positive things..
nope...
she'll never fall back into that never-ending abyss of hopelessness ever again....

i was eating my reunion dinner at this kok restaurant in a pte function room..when this girl walked into the room and went HELLO! to this other table full of ppl...and then my sis nudged me and went...aye!sun yan zi's sister...so ...i looked up...and i went...WHAT?! IT'S SUN YAN ZI HERSELF!!! haha...ok...i don't know why am i so excited...i'm not a fan of hers...but anyway...i just had to blog about it...to make those of you who are her fan JEALOUS...hoho....

and yj....congrats...u sneaky weaky...sly person *wink wink* hahahhahahahhaha

*burp*.....HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!

clever businesswomen and their good services

there's this shop along chinatown's upper cross street run by a group of aunties who sell superb chicken noodles/you ji mian...they are what i call intelligent businesswomen...
to cater to the cny crowd...they came up with a drive-by service(yup..just like Macs!)...all u have to do is just illegaly park along the road..and they'll take ur order and hand u the chicken right away...chopped/unchopped/whole/half...whichever way u want it!
i'm impressed....and so were my parents...heh!

my good friend has been saying that i've become very violent and vulgar recently...i don't exactly agree...i really hate to swear...but i'm sorry i have to this time......

to the person who stole my 'disaster area' sign right off my door: i hope you fucking burn in hell you assholic cheapskate!!!! can't u go buy one on ur own?!?!? grrrrr!!! just happily and rudely pluck it off my door right! basketball! u sickening conniving thief! don't let me find out who you are.......u won't see daylight anymore i swear!

a yummy brownie and a glass of milk for breakfast...totally made my day
milk never tasted so good before...
MILK:

• gives you strong bones and healthy teeth
• gives you more nutrients than any other drink
• contains - calcium, protein, vitamin A, B-12, D, potassium, phosphorous, niacin, and riboflavin
• prevents osteoporosis
• with the right diet..it'll help u to lose weight
• and... to all my not so tall friends...it helps you GROW =)

so....GOT MILK?? www.whymilk.com

henceforth...officially a milk addict...i'll aim to drink a glass a day...but pray i do not grow any taller!

i never knew that J.M Barrie was the author of Peter Pan...and i didn't know that Finding Neverland was the movie about his life....till i just checked it out on imdb.com..and there i was thinking that it's so cool that the children in the play have the same name as the kids...such a pleasant and dreamy show =) it was worth my $8.50

have you ever been in a state where u are so contented that u are just living in this land of your own, and u just smile to yourself all the time? you're in this constant dream mode and you can hardly hear what the people around you are talking about, you can't be bothered about what's going on in your surrounding, and you just go around in a pleasant daze? i was there tonight.

have you ever sought after a land where you will remain a kid forever?a land without sorrows and worries...a land where you spend your days dreaming and having fun? a land with pirates, fairies, mermaids, red indians and flying children...neverland...that's what it is! as stupid as it may seem...ever since the day tt i watched peter pan when i was a kid...i've always dreamt about going to neverland and staying there..though i know it does not exist.i've always wanted to live there and not have to grow up....in fact...my ambition as a kid was to be a red indian...what kinda ambition is that anyway???haha...well..i hope i find neverland soon..maybe it's that dreamy land where only u exist in.where nothing in the world can affect you.where you are just contented with that dreamy emptiness...that state of mind whereby your mind is just blank in a pleasant manner...in other words...stonning.

J.M. Barrie: You can visit Neverland anytime you like.
Peter Llewelyn Davies: How?
J.M. Barrie: By believing Peter, Just believe.

"You find a glimmer of happiness in this world, there's always someone who wants to destroy it. "

i'm finding neverland......

i've been constantly checking the forum of this particular geog module of mine...and i was wondering why the hell was everyone guessing where our lecturer's from...and some people even gave a super detailed analyis of the England map...and the direction he probably ventured off in while he was a youth and the places he settled in....and i was thinking to myself..."god...are these people too free or are they insane?! why are they doing such retarded stuff???" and then i finally found the answer...some kind soul decided to post a new entry in the forum..and apparently there's this contest in the geog department website...and the challenge was to guess where he was from..and there were clues!!and the prize was a box of chocolates -_-"

so anyway...i suddenly feel damn stupid..because i wish i was able to analyse the map like how those peopl have done...but sorry i think i am too dumb to be able to achieve that(can just hear people screaming.."BUT YOU ARE A GEOG MAJOR!!!")...but i guess i'll give it a try when i'm free. and ...my initial impression of them being retarded has transformed into admiration...i admire them for having the drive to look up the map....for posting their comments on the forum...and for even bothering about the contest. i think i should be more active.....but i know i'll just talk talk talk and not do anything in the end...HAHA! well...i'll try my best to.....

i suddenly recalled how my pri sch "friend" almost ran me over with her nissan whatever...and it pissed me off...bitch...J.L...hated u since pri sch and still hate u now....don't u freaking know what's a pedestrian crossing!?if u want to run me over with ur car...at least drive a bmw couppe or something...don't use ur junk ass of a nissan to do it!

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we were talking about various subjects the other day...and we came to a particular one that we agreed is definitely not difficult to study...but is just extremely urk! and then we also came to the conclusion that those people doing it...seriously think they are a bunch of elites and they just think they are UP THERE. so here's what i have to say to u all...u're not any smarter than any of us...it just so happen that u do not have the same interest as the rest of us...so stop being such snobs...and we definitely do not see eye to eye...because u all definitely do not see the humanistic and artistic side of life...u all have ur own reasoning and we have ours...we respect urs...so do the same too...stop dismissing our ideas and trying to plant ur thoughts in us...stop thinking of us as ridiculous bunch of idiots with artsy dumb logics and thinkings...because we are not...assholes!

alright...enough bitching...this is a sign that i need to sleep...

cny is next week..and i just realised today that i only have sch on monday next week!!how fantastic?!?!

speaking of cny...i had this pretty funny conversation with my cousin just now. we were complaining about how boring cny is..and if not for the ang pows...we really can't be bothered about this festive season. then...we both came up with the best idea ever...if only ang pows could be posted to us..then cny will just be fabulous!i say...we are geniuses..great minds think alike!haha...damn...i really hate cny...and all those horrid cny songs!grr...if not for the ang pows and the new clothes that i get to buy...i think i wld really ignore this festive season...which brings me to another pt...it's a FESTIVE SEASON...how ironic...i don't find it very enjoyable.......

i can just predict our itinerary man.....
HOW BORING!i wish i had more happening relatives :(
and to a certain someone ...STOP FREAKING GIVING ME 4 BUCKS! YOU'VE BEEN GIVING ME 4 BUCKS SINCE THE DAY I WAS BORN!HAVEN'T U HEARD OF INFLATION?!u CHEAPSKATE!! btw...the 3 of us have already blacklisted u!

How To Be Dead - Snow Patrol

Please don't go crazy, if I tell you the truth
No you don't know what happened
And you never will if
You don't listen to me while I talk to the wall
This blanket is freezing, it's been out in the hall
Where you've had me for hours
Till I'm sure what I want
But darling I want the same thing that I wanted before
So sweetheart tell me what's up I won't stop no way

Please keep your hands down
And stop raising your voice
It's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choice
It's a simple suggestion can you give me sometime
So just say yes or no
Why can't you shoulder the blame
Coz both my shoulders are heavy
From the weight of us both
You're a big boy now so let's not talk about growth
You've not heard a single word I have said...
Oh, my God

Please take it easy it can't all be my fault
I haven't made half the mistakes
That you've listed so far
Oh baby let me explain something
It's all down to drugs
At least I remember taking the and not a lot else
It seems I've stepped over lines
You've drawn again and again
But if the ecstacy's in the wit is definitely out
Dr. Jekyll is wrestling Hyde for my pride

to the person who wrecked the showerhead of my fav cubicle...and deprived me of my nice baths for three whole weeks coz of tt five horrid "strings" of water that i had to bathe with: YOU'RE AN ASS!

to the person who finally fixed it back: you're LOVELY and you're an ANGEL!

dead tired...gd nite!

Worn Me Down - Rachael Yamagata

Gone - she's gone.
How do you feel about it?
That's what I thought.
You're real torn up about it.
And I wish you the best
I could do without it
And I will because you've worn me down
Oh, I will because you've worn me down

Worn me down like a road.
I did everything you told.
Worn me down to my knees.
I did everything to please you.
But you can't stop thinking about her.
No, you can't stop thinking about her.

And you're wrong.
You're wrong.
I'm not overreacting.
Something is off.
Why don't we ever believe ourselves?
And I, oh I, I feel it more for you.
And I will because you've worn me down.
And I will because you have worn me down.

Worn me down like a road.
I did everything you told.
Worn me down to my knees.
I did everything to please.
But you can't stop thinking about her.
No, you can't stop thinking about her.

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But I'm so tired of thinking about her, again, tonight.

Worn me down like a road.
I did everything you told.
Worn me down to my knees.
I did everything to please you.

Worn me down like a road.
I did everything you told me to do.
But you, you can't stop thinking about her.
No, you can't stop thinking about her.
No, you can't stop thinking about her.
No, you can't stop thinking of her.

autograph books

the things that holds the memories of all my dear friends...yes it may sound a bit cheesy now...but really...an autograph book was THE thing that u had to have at the end of each school year...or whatever it was that marked a seperation from your buddies! sadly...nobody bothered to bring one during JC days..i guess it might have looked dumb or something.....

flipping through the pages...all the memories of my crazy friends started coming back...friends who've not been present in my life over the recent years...friends whom i've drifted from...and i felt a pang of sadness within me...

as i read each entry...i found myself smiling at the pages...all the funny stuff that was written in there....all the weird stuff that was pasted(plasters, sweet wrappers, the box of a pimple cream(michelle..tt was u..), chewing gum wrappers, matchsticks(?!?!?!) etc)...pages that were burnt, torn, cut up, crumpled, coloured, all for the sake of decoration....pages and pages of the fun times that we had documented in there...photographs of us....nick names and fake details...poems like "birds fly high..hard to catch..friends like u..hard to forget!" or "sianhua sianhua in the air...i can see ur underwear...not too big...not too small...just the size of singapore!" could be found all over the book...HAHA!

and then i really felt like going back to that point in time. the point in time where my only worries were my studies(i was really stupid u see..)...where i only cried when i had to be seperated from my friends,or when i failed my maths test (bah!)...where i only got really angry and started scolding people to their face like once in a loooooooooong time...where i didn't have to try and figure out what others were thinking coz they would just naturally tell me...where i didn't have to try so hard to understand my friends...where everything was just...NICE AND FINE!

ok...not like things are horrid now...but those days were much better i guess...haha...growing up is such a blardee complex thing....tsk....well anyway...after flipping through the book...i finally found what i was looking for...and here's my task for the day....

dear moh moh...i don't think u'll ever read this...but if u do....HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY BABE!!!..i miss the days when i would pluck ur arm hair in class and make you yelp during LIT lesson...and Mrs Koh would just stare at us with her intimidating eyes...the days when we would fall asleep during assembly together or bitch about that yellow big bird on stage.....the days when we mastered the art of talking in class with our teeth clenched and without having to move our lips..all the times we sneaked food to each other under the table...and a million other things that we used to do...hehe..those were the days man...those were the days...hope this will be a spuperb year for ya babe...and love ya loads!! and we gotta meet up soon! haha!


moh moh, mingli, chan, zuoyi and i...the last time we met....2 yrs ago!! =(

sigh...i'm tired of facing angry faces
angry faces with no explanation
i'm trying hard to put the smiles back on...but it's taking it's toll on me
i'm trying hard to not get affected...but i'm failing badly...it's absolutely rubbing off on me..
so PLEASE...whoever u are...SMILE...or at least tell me WHY...coz i don't think i can take it any longer...it's killing the joy in me...it's killing the happy me =(

bring to me to the oc...
where nice men exist...
where loving someone is such a great feeling...
where marriages are sweet and lovely...
where houses are huge and grand...
where lovely clothes exist...
where parties are an everyday thing...
where bagels seem the yummiest...
where fighting is just part and parcel of growing up and understanding each other...
where fighting helps to further reinforce and strengthen relationships...
where people kiss and make up after fights...
where u are obviously 25 but yet can pretend that u are 16...
where everything seems splendid =)

certified...The OC addict....

bumped into a certain someone yest...god..u looked terrible.i must have been blind.

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d-e-a-d tired....physically...mentally...emotionally...in every single aspect
6 hours of tutorial straight is no joke...i swear
e only consolation...geog and icm tuts were fun..and i hope they'll be tt way for the rest of the sem
bahasa was extremely disappointing today...expected it to be better...but i guess itz probably coz i was so darn tired...i just blanked out from 715 onwards...didn't even hear yj talking to me..sorry!

i received ur sms...and we made arrangements...and...once again...we didn't meet in the end
this always happens..but well i expected it...don't bother appologising...i'm used to it.

if i didn't give two hoots about many things...i'd be a happier and even more carefree person...not like i'm not already one...but well...i could do with more of both of them!

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was reading the blog of a friend whom i was once very close to...i could just imagine myself blogging about all the things she wrote...but alas...it's all a dream...that will never ever come true...

if only we could change our goals to match...

life would then be oh-so-perfect =)

went to smu for their 'patrons day' with kunies, yj and viv today to support xing who had a stall at the bazaar.bought two tees at pretty cheap prices.drank one and a half cup of tiger which was going at a dirt cheap price of 3 bucks per cup. saw my 'fav' friend there.met zh and man there.realised that all the ppl whom i've been wondering "what the hell happened to them?!" were gathered in smu.saw a few unlikable faces.talked to someone and couldn't remember who she was(as usual...what's new...i suck or as viv says...wuck).have to admit that smu is really quite happening.wondered what my life would be like now if i had transferred there...i'll definitely have tons of indian nationals and MICs for good friends.made my great escape before taufik and sly arrived..seriously...i don't give a shit about them!so don't bother promoting them to me..they have to pay me to support them..ok...kunies is going to scold me again!.had a pretty lousy jap dinner.desperate housewives' damn good!.looked at my reading list and almost burst into tears.spent a whole hr printing readings.remembered that i'm supposed to meet my mom for a movie tmr, and i forgot to call her just now. feel damn guilty about it.dead tired.good night.

had fun today though i spent the whole day at home..
felt like i went back to my good old primary school days..
had a pretty good time studying in the car porch with my ff of a sister who was trying to make some sense of her very confusing biology homework....
there we sat..scratching our heads at the difficult content and screaming at our books as we shared ritz bitz cheese crackers, a mini aero bar and "fought" for the better tasting jelly beans....driving each other nuts by rocking the table while writing or shaking our legs, or by constantly repeating "shaking that ass" and humming "star spangled banners..
talking rubbish...dragging out shoes from the shoe cupboard and parading around the car porch in them ...and smsing rubbish to the other for the fun of it (i did that) when we got bored!
then.. we decided to invite bala to join us in the fun...so we made a looooong distance call to melly-borny and talked rubbish...laughing over ned kelly, nigel water bottles, in your dreams buddy, have you seen my daughter and like i care bullocks..for 21 mins...haha...there goes ur calling card bala!
and now...we get to watch tv downstairs till the wee hours because someone's not coming home tonight...hohoho!!

what a pleasant and simple day this has been...if only all weekends were like that =)

0217..suddenly thought of something that's constantly being mentioned these days...VALENTINE'S DAY...it's here again...
friends have been going on about how sad they are that they have no one special to celebrate it with...while others have been filling me in, on the surprises that they have planned for their special someone...as for me...it's been the same all along...v-day's so insignificant...i can't even remember the exact date. i think i've asked for the exact date for what...5 times in 2 days??? its just like any other day i guess
i'm reminded of those days in PL when everyone wld come to sch with chocolates, small little presents, flowers, cards, heart-shaped stuff for each other...and though it's an all girls sch...v-day was still splendid and enjoyable..coz of how we all loved each other (no lesbianism involved here...) =)
but things just changed after PL...v-days weren't like how they used to be...couples will rejoice..and singles will just go around feeling down....which i think's really sad.......
but anyway.....to all my single friends....v-day's also known as FRIENDSHIP DAY! so....let's all go out together...and eat, drink and be merry!! why bother about singlehood when we've got each other??hehe...ok....easier said than done...but anyway...no worries ya all..i say...the time will come...yes it will come..

wishing things were like how they were before.......

oh...i watched a walk to remember again today...6th time!!

what does it feel like, to have to pick cans from a dustbin for a living...and yet not be able to afford to taste the drink inside?

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you only realise how much you love someone...when u are seperated from the person...

crap shit semester

what a crap shit semester...
i thought that taking bahasa would be fun...but it totally screwed up my timetable
now i have a blardee 5 day week...and i have classes till 8pm on mon and thurs...and on even weeks i only have class from 6 to 8 pm on thursdays...
seriously...i hate swearing...but this time i have to say it......what the fark man!!
this somehow feels even worse than in jc when i had to go to sch at 6.30am in the morning and stay till 7pm almost everyday...
never ever have i had classes on fri..and now...poor melody and i have a stupid jackass 1 hr class at 9am for jap mass media...EVERY WEEK! so farking screwed up! i hate cors!!! jackasses!
nus is such a bitch!

other than crap shit timetable....today was pretty fun

went for archery with hil and jin...it was damn tiring!
convinced that we were legolas...we tried our best to hit the bullseye...and we weren't too bad i have to say...at least we hit the yellow rim! hil suffered two injuries...which she didn't even realise till jin pointed them out to her! jin shot one balloon...and we all won sunblocks!..except hil of course...coz she left early..hoho..jin...we really should have taken pics! just like the time we went for the intro course for fencing! haha!

ALFIE...
the man who can captivate any woman...
the man who refuses to commit...
the man who has women eating out of his hands...
the man who can make women do things for him willingly...
the man who did not appreciate all the things women did for him
the man who was left with no one at the end of the day..because all the women realised that he wasn't worth it afterall...u get what u give

......the extremely good looking and drool-worthy jude law...

2 new pairs of shoes

very humourous parents have i
one said my shoes were so big i could walk on water with them
another said my shoes were so big they looked like dragon boats
an even funnier sister i have
"u can use your shoes to bail the water out of your sinking boat"
OR
"u can drink from your shoes"

thanks....it's really not my fault that i have big feet...

back from siying's 21st party! it was pretty grand, but yet nice and simple at the same time. she held it at the meridien hotel in changi, and had it buffet style. man...she received a whole load of presents...and the biggest one of all...a microwave oven! which she's gonna put in her hostel...haha..so now her room's filled up by her fridge,microwave and tv...and i'm gonna spend more time there! haha! kidding!

anyway...hey babe....HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!!!you looked super hot today!hahaha!

yj and i were discussing what to wear the whole afternoon...and 2 hrs before the party she called me to tell me, my true love said that everyone there's wearing super formally...like prom dresses and shirt and pants! so the both of us started panicking...and then i started regretting that i did not buy the p.o.a dress yest! then i had to go all the way out to buy a pair of black heels coz i didn't have one...so after two hours of panicking...we finally found stuff to wear.....and this is what we both went to the party in........

now...to all those who have been going on for ages of how you've never seen me in a skirt...or how i do not wear skirts...who says so?! here.....now you've seen me in one...and you've got nothing more to say...hmmph!haha!


me, siying and yj

...yj...mission accomplised ya?!haha!

i'm home again! i'm home again! i have nothing else better to do! so i'm blogging for the 2nd time in a day..and right after i posted my first!hohoho!i came home just in time to catch the episode of joe ma dying in my favourite tv drama serial! i couldn't stop crying while watching it =( anyway...one of the characters brought up a point that i thought was pretty true...people always say that we should fight for the ones we love. that we shouldn't give up so easily. but...what's the point in fighting...when you know that the other person won't love you back? isn't it just a waste of time...and creating sadness and misery for yourself?

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zouk 2 nights ago was very fun! one of the best times ever =) i was wandering around alone for like 5 to 10 mins between phuture and zouk looking for a familiar face... and all of sudden..someone screamed into my ear at zouk! i turned around to face siying n yuguo..both extremely high at that pt i must add!followed them to the dance floor and there i found hobz and her whole grp of friends...and a while later hildra and shiau hui appeared with a whole bunch of unknown people..who turned out to be a really hilarious and crazy bunch of people! saw a few more familiar faces through the rest of the night...first time that this has ever happened!heh..how exciting!..ok sounds bimbotic..but anyway...i really had fun though i kinda expected not to, at the start of the night =)

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i got a belated birthday/christmas present today...a very lovely fossil watch =) haha...it's so pretty! i wore it for a whole hour..while i was at home! hahahahahha...and now it's resting in it's nice tin box. once again..thanks cootie!i'll try my best to save up for you know what....

to: a very good friend..who has retarded response on msn...

this entry's 2 days late....
mel n i were chatting one fine wed afternoon, and we suddenly started talking about this very good friend of ours (who by the way...still has mel's vokda in her house...). as we were yakking...one of us brought up the topic of how our dear friend takes donkey kong years to reply on msn...so this entry is specially dedicated to our dear friend...

you know who you are...

here goes..
our dear friend...is normally either not online,or on away mode.once in a while if we are lucky, she will msg us to say hi..and after talking for a few mins, she will go off to play her gunbound or whatever it is, or to watch her television...and then we won't hear from her for a horridly long time!i must say something though...mel...you are definitely much luckier than me..because she never replies you. on the other hand..when she replies to my messages..these are the usual contents..."!!!!!", or "can you not be an idiot????","go and die la!!!" or...her latest favourite phrase..."MORON!!!!"...thanks. in circumstances like these...i would say that..silence is much better! haha...

so our dear friend...mel and i have come to the conclusion that...EITHER..you reply our msgs quickly/stop calling me a moron...OR..we will make u wear a lime green vest that says "I MUST LEARN TO COMMUNICATE WITH MY FRIENDS", and make you parade down orchard road as a form of public embarrassment.hahaha...alright..that's the end of this special entry. aren't you touched??!?!??!?! hehe...

i sense a huge "MORON" coming my way......

couldn't get up today...super duper late for lecture...but no loss...it was hell boring! the lecturer didn't know how to get the comp working...so he went on for like a whole 10 to 15 mins talking about himself...seriously...do i look like i care?!

jin, mel and i got a tattoo at the bazaar after that! super cheap and cool! haha..cootie got one too..we can all go be gangsters together..

i'm dead tired and i don't know why...listening to everyone telling me about their sweet and pleasant day today...how nice..wish mine was like that too...sigh...good night world..

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our tattoos...

first day of school...totally enjoyed myself! ya right...i'm definitely lying! i had to drag myself to school this morning..and put myself through 2 torturous 2hr long lectures...this sem is gonna be pretty tough...i just know...the intro lects have already introduced us to the horror that we'll be going through for the remaining 4 months

we have to build a website yet again....this time for e-learning...and of course...brilliant us - equipped with our wonderful IT skills will be able to come up with something splendid..then again.. we might to call our fav M.W.K once again to beg him for help :p

ah the only consoling thing of the whole day...YJ and i chatted with this handsome angmoh in geog lecture!haha..we successfully picked him up..we're brilliant aren't we YJ?! mission accomplished!i couldn't stop smiling to myself for the rest of the evening!haha...and as cootie says...we're on our way to becoming SPFs...haha...

i'm determined to do well this sem! cap 5 here i come! gonna read my readings now! ....ya...who am i kidding man...

caught phantom of the opera today...i must say...i am utterly disappointed. the movie's nothing compared to the real thing. the cast isn't that great...and everything's just not that great. haha...but anyway...i'm crazy over the songs again!

ok other than that...nothing much happened today...

now...for the most important thing....

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY DARLING KUNIES!!!
hope this will be a splendid year for you..as my dad says...you can now VOTE! so please..make the right choice...haha ...whatever...hope you find your yada yada soon...and ermm...may everything be fabulous for you...enjoy adulthood ex-kiddo! and of course..thanks a lot my dear friend for being there for me all the time...listening to my complaints and woes and sorrows..for the jc times, all the hugs, recent car rides, the saturday night outtings, the fun during clubbing, the shopping trips, everything else and of course...for calling me lotus kusu! =)
p.s. i must once again...remind u that i just turned 20, 16 days ago...hahahha!!!


haha...look at happy kunies...waiting for the clock to strike 12 so tt she can see her cake...and who tried to silence us when we loudly announced in IndoChine that she's 21

had dinner with zh, lori and man last night...had a good time talking about our all-time favourite topic..and laughing at all the stuff that happened during primary school! thanks for the chocs ya all! it's super nice!...and the bouncer at zouk confiscated it for a few mins...haha...

as usual...phuture was da bomb...last night was exceptionally good coz we had this huge space to ourselves! zouk was how boring...but nvm...i was kinda disappointed in V while i was in zouk...but after i went to phuture...i was pleased!haha...had a good time...and thanks to V..i slept like a baby when i came home..was kind of expecting myself to not be able to fall asleep...
met many ppl in zouk...and the biggest surprise of all...clarence..he still looks like a teddy bear...haha..

my parents are home with the contractor...and soon the peony painting will be up on the wall...the insurance for M...it had better work...

time's at a standstill today...it's been 7 the whole day...the rain hasn't stopped for a single second, and the sky has been gloomy ever since i don't know when.i've taken numerous naps and now i have nothing else to do...so here i am...blogging once again.

was reading blogs last night and i realised that everyone have been going on about how good or bad..although mostly bad...2004 has been...and how they hope 2005 would be like...so i have to do the same...kidding! haha...all i want to say is...yes 2004 was bad...seriously bad...and i'm glad it's gone...shoo..get lost...good riddance! i hope 2005 will be much better...although...errm... things aren't really looking good eh...with that tsunami and all happening...but well we all have to be optimistic...it'll be a good year! yup! it definitely will!

new year's resolution: to not repeat any of the bad things i did last year...like killing, taking drugs, drinking, robbing....

and so.....
HAPPY 2005 EVERYONE! (and i really mean HAPPY!)

my "oh-s0-exciting" thursday...
i spent the whole afternoon staring at the comp...took 2 naps...ate tons of spaghetti..and then i took out all my unwanted clothes to donate them to the flood victims!now...the exciting part of the whole day was...clearing out my old clothes! my sisters were going crazy trying on all the old and oh-biang clothings that we had,hidden somewhere in our cupboards...and we were laughing like mad...all those hideous prints and weirdly shaped clothes...and the ultimate was the pair of baggy jeans! i couldn't stop laughing when i tried them on! the pants were big enough to stuff at least 5 chickens in them!HAHA! and they are really hideous looking...and i once thought they were cool...sigh...what was wrong with me...heh...anyway after tons of laughter..i made up my mind to keep them...because..they are the ultimate classics...worth keeping..just for the sake of laughter of course! :p

4e dinner last night was good..thanx mich for organising it!:) though we all didn't hang ard together for long...but it was great meeting up and seeing how much everyone has changed!

had quite a fun time at zouk last night!managed to squeeze into phuture with viv, yj, shak, jin and jin's million friends..spent most of the night in phuture...finally after such a long time...zouk should really consider expanding that place! we had a great time dancing until this malay guy with a super poky woolen vest came along with his superb dancing skills and kept banging into us..and we all got kinda pissed after tt...then there was his friend and her splendid dreadlocks that almost poked me to death...man...it sure was an itchy and poky night for me!and i have a pretty cig burn on my hand...courtesy of my good friend jin...but itz ok..she's agreed to pay for my plastic surgery if there's a scar...right???haha...i can't erase the image of jean dancing in zouk..she's really hilarious!all in all...last night was good! :)

time for some photos again!

exactly how i feel about my life right now...LOST!

the new monster in town...the flower monster!

i'm finally 20! haha...well i waited for like how long...not like i am extremely excited tt i've finally hit the big TWO ZERO...but well...i've finally joined all my friends in the TWO ranks already! celebrated it pretty simply...but had a great time...and may i please add...i have a big tummy! what's new? met up with kunies, jin, yj for lunch at kenny rogers and dessert at max brenners...totally couldn't move after tt! thanx a lot for the present ya all! like it a lot! and the bday card's pasted on my pgp room wall now! hehe!

had dinner with my family in china sq after tt...we had some chinese cuisine buffet...yes it caused my tummy to grow even bigger..haha..the food was ok....but the shark fin was crap...there wasn't any shark fin in the "superior double boiled shark fin soup"! cheats!

met up with my "W.E.I.O.O.W" friend(i bet u dunno wad it means cootie..haha!) after tt...we did wad we always do...walk from cinema to cinema looking for some movie to watch..but we ended up in IndoChine..where we finished a whole bottle of white wine...and we went crazy taking photos! haha...hey man...thanx for the crazy time we had in town..and...WE'RE A TEAM!haha!

last night was the first time i spent christmas eve in town! the ppl were going crazy spraying tt canned fake snow stuff on each other and on other ppl's car...and some stupid idiot attacked me! bah! the streets were packed like mad...and was absolutely dirty!i can't imagine wad it'd be like on new yr's eve!



max brenner...yum yum yum!!

the first nice foto that we've ever taken!


look! how artistic!

*so sad...i had to remove my fav foto coz of some particular reasons :(

hohoho...i am back...i am back!Hong Kong was as nice as ever...endless shopping and eating...we ate so much till we compared with each other to see who had a bigger tummy! haha...horrendous us! well this time round i didn't buy any branded stuff...all cheap cheap cheap stuff! we found a million things to buy at the splendid Jardine Street Bazaar...all the cheap belts, cardigans, pullovers...shoes...woooahhh! overwhelming!and....i finally bought my shades...from Loi Yan Gai...i kept calling it Loh Poh Gai and Loh Yan Gai when i was there..my sis almost died of laughter from my stupidity! heh!

anyway..this trip was the best of all the times we went to HK, coz the three of us ventured off on our own..and got lost in the streets of Causeway Bay...there was SO MANY shopping centres....streets and bazaars to check out...and we really got lost in Island Beverly shopping centre...it's like far east...but much more maze like!

oh yes...the most impt point...HK guys are DAMN GOOD LOOKING! we were having a super good time checking them out!hahahah....hum sup us!anyway... they are all TALL! the one factor that most singaporean guys lack...and they all dress damn well...although a bit absurd...and they have such splendid hair and features...omg...i'm convinced...my husband's definitely gonna come from HK! haha!! and...i saw alex to in the HK airport...those dimples.....*melt*

my fav hk food...beef noodles..and breakfast set A..haha

the ruins of st. paul in macau

and of course...the stupid pic of this trip!

ah! we received a splendid christmas hamper from my uncle this morning! a huge piece of ham...log cake, and tt raisin bread thing..and of course wine...yumz...can't wait to eat them!


check it out!

2 nights ago, hilly was telling me about how mean her bf's parents were to make him take the mrt on his own to the airport while the rest of the family took the cab...and i was laughing at how poor thing he was...
and now tonight...my dad happily came out of his room...stood behind my sis and i...and said..."so...tmr 2 of us have to take the mrt to the airport, coz there's no space in the cab...who's gonna volunteer?" and so...i took my eyes off the comp screen and turned to look at my dad and i saw his sinister smile at my sis and i...haha...basket...and i said..."with that look and smile on your face...it seems like we don't really have a choice do we?!" then he went "heh heh...ok so the both of you get to take the train tmr morning"...like it's some kinda honour....bleah...
like i always say...you get what you give...WaGACA i tell u...now i can laugh at myself...at how poor thing i am...sigh...haha...
alright..time to go to bed...coz i have to wake up early to take the train :(

ah it's been a while...and yet i have nothing much to blog about.haven't been doing much...either slack at home, or hang around town...oh...i've found a new place to hang out at! TAMPINES MALL!hahaha! hey it's cool man...everyone should go check out that place...they have a rooftop garden..and some cool playground!i think i've watched almost every single movie that there is...those that are really worth watching are "national treasure" and "world without thieves".sort of expected "world without thieves" to be another one of those disappointing chinese movies..but it turned out to be real nice! absolutely worth my money!

speaking of money...i spend most of my money on food!i'm definitely turning into a pig! i sleep for at least 10 hours a day...and then i laze around or eat for the rest of the day...haha! i suddenly picture myself as some freaking fat ass sitting on a couch, watching the tele and stuffing myself with food all day long *yikes* pretty horrifying! think it's time to go burn some fats!

oh! i cut off my hair! it's really short now...and yes i'm leaving for hk on tues...MORE SHOPPING AND MORE EATING!and now for some photos...

here's what's turning me into a pig...

and our "class gathering" last night...


did i mention that i'm eating this piece of blueberry cake that's full of whipped cream right now?? and that my mom just said that i'm gonna go out of shape soon?? haha...shit...

HONEY....I'M HHHHHOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha..i'm home...moved home some of my stuff from pgp...it's that time of the year again.......
time to be a queen...
to grow fat at home...
to laze around all day long....
to watch tv like there's no tomorrow...
to not have to do my own laundry....
to not have to clean my room......
to not have to cook my own meals....
to not have to eat instant mee anymore...
to have good food laid infront of me for every meal
yup..yup..yup...it's that time of the year again!! =)

helped siying move her fridge to my room today...omg...the both of us are mad...we were laughing like mad women throughout the whole way....and were trying to find the best direction to walk in...but we moved it pretty fast i must say! so now...i have a real fridge in my room! haha...and yes my friend...i will definitely fully utilise ur fridgen if i ever go back there!haha! oh...and thanx a lot for ur help on wed night! *wink* haha...thanx to yj and peach too! haha....NO MORE L.I.T!!