have you ever tried telling people that you are down or depressed, and you really have no mood for anything..especially not work, and all you want to do is stay at home and lie under the covers to cry and sigh, and the answer you get is...don't talk rubbish. stop being lazy. you have no patience or perseverance etc.? it's like you say u feel like shit, and then u get even more shit back.

well that's what happens when i tell my parents that.

wtf. maybe they will really believe me when i start like talking to air, or sit in the corner and start like chewing paper or what.

There's a danger in loving somebody too much,

and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.

There's a reason why people don't stay who they are,

Baby, sometimes love just ain't enough.

us..the great rats!

Though the Western rat is reviled as little more than a bottom-dwelling disease carrier, this animal is viewed much differently in the East. The Eastern rat is revered for its quick wits and its ability to accrue and hold on to items of value; rats are considered a symbol of good luck and wealth in both China and Japan. Clever and quick-witted, the Rat of the Chinese Zodiac is utterly disarming to boot. Possessed of excellent taste, this Sign flaunts its style at every turn. Its natural charm and sharp, funny demeanor make it an appealing friend for almost anyone. The Rat likes to know who is on its side and will treat its most loyal friends with an extra measure of protection and generosity.

Behind that sweet smile, though, Rats are keen and unapologetic promoters of their own agendas. This Sign is motivated by its own interests, which often include money; greed can become a problem if the Rat isn't careful to keep its priorities straight. This Sign's natural powers of charm and persuasion can definitely come in handy! Although they are often hoarders, Rats can be very generous to those in their "pack," namely friends and family members who have proven their loyalty. Others might perceive them as quick-tempered and sharp-tongued, but never boorish. Verbal jousting is a great pleasure for the Rat, a Sign that everyone around will quickly learn either to love or to hate.

Rats enjoy being on the outside looking in, as the outside affords a view into the inner workings of a system or situation. The Rat's keen mind always seeks out new knowledge, to be stored away for future use. This ever-curious Sign also welcomes challenges as a way to stay sharp. If boredom sets in the Rat is no fun at all, but that isn't likely; this Sign knows how to keep itself entertained.

A valuable lesson for Rats is to learn to consider others above themselves, at least sometimes. If they can develop their sense of self and realize it leaves room for others in their life as well, Rats could find true happiness.
The most compatible match for a Rat is the Dragon or the Monkey.


aren't you glad i'm your friend??? sekali tmr suddenly i have no more friends...

today i had a sausage egg mcmuffin, a hashbrown and a cup of ice milo for my breakfast :)

ok that's all. hah...u wish.i'm so talkative..how can that be all?!

anyway macs is up to the same tricky long john silver business. when u order a breakfast meal..they ask u what drink wld u like? and when u say ice milo...they will ask u..medium? HAH! TRICKY BASTARDS! don't fall for that! say...NO! SMALL YOU TRICKSTER! SMALL!

so anyway as i was saying...after breakfast...i started falling asleep. as in seriously. so i had to resort to calling my pfc friend and pretend that i was interested in buying some bonds..but she said sorry we no sell bonds. wtf. and after 3 mins she said she had to go...bah. so i started falling asleep again.

then i decided to call this guy i call my bf. and he asked me...why didn't you msg me yest? to which i replied...why didn't u msg me yest? and he said no...why didn't u msg or call me yest? and i said why didn't u msg or call me yest? so we spent 5 mins asking each other the same qn. and finally we went through both our schedules for yesterday and came to the conclusion that i was busy so i didn't msg him, and he FORGOT to msg me. at this pt...he drops a whole of bottle of pepper into the bowl of noodles he was cooking and shouts...FUCK! I CAN'T EAT MY NOODLES ANYMORE! hah! serves him right. see what does this teach u? remember to call/msg ur gf everyday or ur lunch will get ruined.

yest my colleague said to me...listen to my piece of advice. don't waste your time quarrelling with your bf. because men are stupid...their minds only think in one direction...it doesn't diversify like ours. so there's no pt arguing with them and trying to get them to understand how we feel and think because they JUST WON'T GET IT. i thought about it and i think...yea that's quite true. so i shan't quarrel from now. (yar right.)

did i mention tt my dad bought me an ipod video as an early bday gift? i think i didn't. yes! i finally have a new ipod! and it hangs everyday. so i haven't even had the chance to use it. what a trashy piece of junk! now i gotta bring it back to the shop! ok anyway..thanks pop.

i'm so f***ing pathetic, i don't know what to do with myself.

robbing me of my riches

i don't think i am a very greedy person. or that i ask for a lot in life. i am pretty satisfied with what i have, even though i am constantly being shortchanged...my salary is the best example. overworked and underpaid. maybe in my last life, i was a greedy person who had a lot but was never contented, so that's why i'm constantly being robbed of my riches in this life. please stop taking away "things" from my life. leave me with the very little that i still possess. please.

let me lead a life of my own, and not a the life of others or the way others want me to be.

falling sick and getting an mc ...check!

being surrounded by sick ppl who are constantly coughing germs into the office atmosphere for a month + extremely terrible haze + being overworked + trying to maximize my very shortweekends (hence staying out till the time normal ppl wake up to go to work) = finally falling sick and getting an mc!

so yes. that is one item off tt list of things that i have to do.

but then....because i am suay and really special, i do not fall sick the way that most ppl do. most people just get flu and fever aka runny/blocked nose & ears+ cough+fever....i on the other hand have to be different.

1. i get these stabbing pains in my back...for 3 days...and tt got me worried because ppl start saying tt, tt's where my kidney is located and it might be serious problem.
2. i fall half sick. the feeling of ur flu threatening to develop and yet not developing is the worst but anyway it finally developed on sunday night...and hence i slept through the entire monday.
3. i get diarrhoea. wtf.
4. i get weak legs tt keep going numb from the diarrhoea

why can't i just fall sick like everyone else?! but anyway...as a result of all these rubbish, i got to leave the office at lunch to come home to work today. so right now...i am WORKING FROM HOME. and i really like the idea of working from home...work has never been more enjoyable and comfortable. haha.

of course the best part of it all is that the toilet is right behind me, and i can dash in the moment i need to go...unlike in the office, i have to lock my comp first, then run to the toilet which is miles away.

and luckily my supervisors are nice people, they allowed me to go home the moment i told them i'd visited the loo 6 times since i stepped into the office...here's the conversation btw my sup and i..

me: hey j, do u need me ard this afternoon? i think i've got diarrhoea or something coz i've been to the toilet 6 times since i got into the office...and if u don't need me ard, i'll go home during lunch and work from home
j: oh no...i hope it's not that stomach flu thing
me: oh no...i hope not too. i can't believe how suay i am..my butt is aching like hell now..not tt u need to know tt..haha
j: haha yes..too much details!
me: hahah
j: ok sure..u can work from home..i just cc-ed u regarding *****
me: yup i just got it, will work on it at home
j: sorry to have to torture u with work despite ur burning asshole
me: HAHA! no worries man...

very humourous ppl they are indeed...yes my asshole is really burning. crapz.

impatient active landmine

"don't waste my time". that's the sentence that's constantly repeating in my head these days. time is THAT precious to me. i have almost zero tolerance for indecisiveness and wishy-washy-ness. i cannot stand it when ppl tell me, "i dunno", "anything". and i'm sorry if i snapped at anybody recently, particularly u know who you are. so let's say if i let you choose, and u can't decide, then i make the decision, and u say no, then u are dead meat. because my time is precious, and if you are going to waste my time with your indecisiveness and i decide to make the choice for you, but u don't agree, then i am going to snap and explode in ur face.

and then there's the active landmine bit. i get angry at the tiniest bit these days. and i am sure someone knows that well. as much as i've tried to control my temper, i have failed. i was only successful for two days, out of the 10 days that this has been going on for. argh. i hate it. i think i'm better off alone. if i go on the way i am, everybody will just start avoiding me and i'll lose my friends.

today's gonna be a good day...

yes. i am sure it will be one. for the various reasons below

1. i'm decked out in my favourite colour...from head to ankle..cannot say feet coz i'm wearing gold shoes
2. my eye candy appeared at the mrt station this morning, and we took the same lift *wolf cry*
3. someone is coming home a day early!
4. and i think i don't really have work to do today...I HOPE...but this one will hardly ever come true..never mind
5. oh...and did i mention i have an intern to help me with my work? HOHO...means i SHOULD NOT have to work on weekends anymore!! i think i'll start loving weekends once again :)

so yes...all signs point to a good day..i shall remain positive for the rest of the day...or at least try my best to do so!

hellloo everyone...it's been a while! and omg..my life is still as boring as ever. so there's nothing much to update on it.

Work's getting better..because i'm getting the hang of things, hence i don't stress up that much these days, but nonetheless the evil queen still never fails to ruin my perfect weekends, with her need for detailed report breakdowns and what nots. resulting in me leaving the office at 8pm on fridays...which in turn cause me to be late for my fri dinner with the girls..and me having to lug the bloody godzilla sized laptop around town. and needless to say...having to work over the weekend. bah.

anyway...the reason why i am able to blog at this weird hour of the morning, when normal robotic working people should be hard at work, is because...everybody's at the weekly meeting...so as the saying goes...when the cat is not around, the mouse comes out to play, or whatever it supposed to be. and of course my laptop is hanging again...so while i wait 'patiently' for it to churn the data i need...i blog.

i've noticed this common item that appears in almost everyone's workstation...and that is a photo of either their kids, or their nieces/nephews. and all the kids are really damn cute. so i've made up my mind...since i don't have any children of my own (omg touch wood!) or any nieces/nephews, i shall just go to the net and grab some random cute kids photo, print it out and pin it on my board. what do you think? good idea or what? and when ppl ask who the kid is...i'll say...ohhh it's so and so's kid...then when they ask what's his/her name? i'll say...errrm....let me go back to the webpage tt i got it from to check...hur hur. ok..clearly my boring working life has given me a rotten sense of humour.

speaking of workstation...my desk is the most depressing and boring thing in the whole office...and my neighbour commented on it the other day. she said my table can only be so empty and neat because i'm either just damn neat by nature...which she doubts so...or i am just not doing my work. to which i replied..i have not been doing my work. and she said...yes i thought so too. basketball...

omgwtf...excel hung again...THERE GOES MY WORK! bitchass.i bet u are thinking why am i so stupid as yet as to not save my work regularly right? well for your info...i am not so stupid of course. excel likes to hang when i PRESS THE SAVE BUTTON. wah kao.

sigh.....in my first mth of work i was damn enthu to go to work every morning. now..when i wake up...i just dragggg myself to the office. don't get me wrong...i don't hate my work...i just hate working life...and of course the laptop that i am using. haha

so...i've decided that these are a few things that i have to do to really brighten up my life....

1. decorate my extremely depressing workstation
2. print some kid's photo and paste it on my board (pretty serious about this)
3. lose some weight...so that at least when i look at myself in the mirror i'll be happy. anything to make myself happy
4. eat more yummy food.
5. go for the monthly feast with the girls.
6. stock up desk with snacks.
7. apply for leave
8. fall sick so that i can apply for medical leave
9. apply for leave so that i can go overseas
10. go on a holiday
11. go on a weekend getaway
12. basically...eat and not work.

ok that was utter rubbish as usual. but...i really need to leave the country!!!
sigh..ok back to work.

working robot people and the great evil queen

after having worked for 3 weeks, my initial believe that working people are similar to robots has definitely been reinforced. i feel increasingly robotic as i go deeper and deeper into my working life.

daily routine includes:
before work - waking up at 0715hr, bathing, change, 10 mins of tv while gobbling down breakfast, leaving the house at 0815, waiting for the same expo train every morning and reaching work at 0900.
1st half of work day - chit chat for 15 mins, switch on laptop, open excel sheet, work work work work work, curse at laptop, curse at laptop, curse at laptop, lunch.
2nd half of work day - excel, excel, excel, email, email, email, email, excel, email, excel, email, excel and email ....LAPTOP HANGS. knnbccbomgwtfblahblahblah....6pm. and then i think to myself...woohoo! time to get off work. but nope that does not happen, the phone rings...a call from sup..go up to meet him/her, and tada...OT! knn.
OT- excel, excel, excel and finally cab home and dinner.
after dinner - one hour of tv, shower, chat online, chat on the phone, sleep.

like how freaking boring and robotic is that?! that has been my working life so far (except for occasional nights out), and i think will possibly be so for the next 11 mths.

but then again i think that's sort of the case for any other working person. because everybody here seems do the same at work everyweek. hence, we are all a bunch of working robot people.

then...there is the great evil queen, who can cause hell to break loose. anything that's submitted will definitely have to be redone. how anal. i think she's probably the reason why i'll be expecting more OTs. sucks.

oh yes to all who have started sch...enjoy it. i never thought that i wld miss the sch tt i disliked so much. but i kinda do...oh no...i miss the times i spent in the sch, not the sch. haha now tt's more accurate! so cherish the time u have left there...when u start work...u will mourn the loss of ur social life.
ok...i better scoot before i get discoverd for skiving. toodles.

pictures time.

more pics from commencement, and at villa bali after the ceremony.
one fine shopping day, when our legs almost broke from walking around searching for a belt.
wine bar and 5 emerald hill.
=)

NDP 2006 : on a very bright and sunny, late saturday afternoon, two very patriotic singaporeans braved the red sea and the very hot sun, and took part in their first live NDP....and they are none other than.....peach and saltz. for the first time in their lives, they watched the NDP live (which will be held in the national stadium for the last time), were upclose with the fireworks, got their pictures taken for smile2006, got filmed on STi (what's this?) for some "dispose your rubbish properly" campaign, and got weird stares from ppl in katong when they went there for their dinner after the parade, because of the spastic tattoos they had on their faces.

outside the national stadium. we felt damn out of place because almost everybody wore red or white...or red AND white...but erm..i was in brown (??) and ok..at least peach wore white.

amusing ourselves with the temp tattoos, clappers and goodie bag

the red sea and us.

the parade.

parachutes.

very patriotic us.

the program which we hardly paid attention to...

errr...we were damn suaku...we didn't know that the flag on the caps could light up...and we spent a good five mins shining light on it to figure out how come the caps of the rest of the ppl were glowing.... until...we found the bloody switch under the cap..hur hur

the fireworks were damn nice! miss "our global city, our home"!

bumped into sy's sister at the start and end of the parade. was telling her that she shouldn't go to the mrt station, coz there're tons of ppl there and it's damn crowded..butshe went to tell her friend tt she can't go there to meet them coz i said it's super havoc there due to terrorists. -_-" anyway tt's us in meem's car on the way to my house for games night!

last day

blogging from the office right now. very fortunately... my comp id got deleted and they had to restore it. and because it was restored, i am now able to use the internet! woohoo! haha..they forgot to block the net...heh. anyway it's my last day working as a temp here today...other than tt pretty sad lunch time that day...it's been a great 10 days working here...and of course the money is good too (for a temp staff)! but hard luck, i will only get my cheque tmr. bah. if not for the not so high pay and not so spectacular job scope, i sure wouldn't mind working here as a perm!

moving on...i'm finally hired permanently! starting work on 1 aug...the pay is the absolute starting pay of a fresh grad..sadly. but that doesn't really bother me that much...because it's the company that i've had my eyes on for a long i guess i'm pretty lucky.

ok...other than these ...life's been pretty much boring, but pleasant and lovely enough =)

oh yes...russell peters is coming to sg! go buy your tix from sistic! and also...don't forget to catch nacho libre...farking funny! i laughed until i was practically howling! totally unglamorous...but jack black is just so freaking fat and funny!

temp-ing

at last...i am no longer a shi jie bai lei (erm...useless being of the society??). thanks to siying...i'm part timing at this local company that produced this ugly machine that makes any passerby puke when he/she witnesses a person mounting the product and start to use it..i know i shldn't have opened my mouth, but i cldn't help but feedback to my colleagues that the machine's utterly gross, and had to continue by asking who the hell and why the hell did that person even come up with such a product?! the reply i got from my very chatty colleague was...."THERE...HE IS THE ONE WHO DESIGNED THE PRODUCT THAT YOU SAID IS GROSS!" (while pointing in the direction of the designer right infront of me of course.) yay...he just had to get me killed. anyway...heng the guy didn't hear it!

so...yay! my bank acct is finally surfacing from it's previously infinite negative balance.

did i mention that i'm working in a dept that consists of men, men, men and even more men?! so for the next weeks i will be stuck with nothing but males. booohooo...thankfully...they are nice people. *phew* my very friendly colleague (also the one who almost got me killed) very kindly brought me on a tour ard the entire building today...and while in the main office..we bumped into one of the staff of the marketing dept....and this was the conversation tt followed...

C (my colleague): oh this is sh...she's taking over qh in my dept
girl: huh?! since when did qh leave??
C: last fri..u dunno meh??
girl: really?? how come?
C: oh her sch term started....
girl: oh ok....
me: hello *smiles*
girl: huuuuhhhh.... i will miss qh...i like her very much...u know why? because she is very small sized..and very good to bully...but this one...errr...
me: hurhur (KNNBCCB.....$#$TP!#!P$T!T$O)
C: why?! this one's very good to disturb too!
me: hurhur...(knn! knn! knn! you stupid woman! you die! die! no wonder you are short, and will remain short for the rest of your life!)

lesson to be learnt by that dwarf...never insult a person who is bigger sized that you!

Happy Birthday Mummy!!

omg....shirt bursting birthday celebration at lei gardens in chijmes just now. and i declare lei gardens and tung lok the two best restaurants in singapore so far! haha...looking forward to more dinners there. ok...time for bed..so the photos shall do the talking..

tiramisu cake...courtesy of cootie

Commencement 2006

yay! we have all finally graduated! three years of being buried under numerous readings, mugging for exams, getting results that follow the " law of diminishing marginal returns", writing essays and studying useless breadth modules came to a conclusion with a 30sec stage appearance dressed in the graduation gown and mortar board. oh yes...not forgetting having our names flashed across the huge screens and the after-ceremony-cam-whoring session. and with this...i leave you with pics from my "square hat" moment.

the ceremony......
the photo-taking session...

and an event is nothing without some monkeying around!

it sucks to spend money everyday when not a single cent is coming into your pocket. i need a job. why the hell is job hunting so difficult? ok...i admit that i haven't been exactly active in my job hunt quest, but from the number of resumes that i have sent out, and jobs that i have applied, i have not even gotten a single call back! what?! is my resume that unspectacular and unappealing that it is filtered as spam, and goes straight into the trash bin the moment it reaches the companies? damn it. the fact that i haven't gotten a single call since mindef, makes it even more demoralising and depressing, and hence i have no drive to search for a job at all. even the recruiment agencies don't want to call me! ok fine...i am queen of excuses for my laziness.

world cup is seriously detrimental to one's health and sleep. i can't wait for it to be over. then again i don't feel like watching anymore. first england got ousted, then BRAZIL (omg, devastated)...and now even germany is out! booooooo...now i'm not interested in watching anymore...france and italy...bah...france is so obviously going to win. then again...who knows...all the impossibles have occured in this world cup.

dinner with the band family plus mr. alvin seville arumugam. shockingly...he lost tons of weight..damn.. if he can do it...i am sure i can too! wj is back for good. all we have to do is wait for sulin to get back, and we'll be reunited...cept for kenny who disappeared to god knows where. then again..kenny who?

wah i am in a major bitchy and mean mood these days. i have no qualms about dishing out insults, and snide remarks straight in people's faces. soon i'll be on everybody's hate list. just look at the way i shot insults across the table at mr. a-s-a (btw...he's the conductor of cjc band) last night....who the hell invites someone whom he/she hasn't seen in ages, only to insult the person throughout dinner? yup...me. then again..i am not the president-from-hell- for nothing! hahah!

alright back to my stonning and...waiting for 10pm to come. ciao.

insomnia

crap shit...i went to sleep at 12 plus last night..and was kinda proud of myself for going to bed at such an early hour. who's to know that i would wake up at 345am and not be able to go back to bed?! SIAN........what am i to do now?? :(

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