bitch fest

last thurs was the official last day of school for me...omg...in three weeks time, my education journey will be over, and i have no foresight or whatever it's called of my future. while i am very much happy to leave this school, i'm also sad to be ending school. what lies ahead? i'm absolutely clueless. with the kind of degree that i am going to get...i don't see anyone wanting to hire me. whatever it is, i gotta face it.

now for exams..exactly one week away from today. have i studied?no. ok yes..a little bit. all because i'm still doing this bitch of a website project and i have no idea how to use macromedia dreamweaver :( my only worry for the exams right now is psych...will i pass it?!!?! i hope i do..if not it's one extra sem for me, and that is majorly wtf.

post-grad trip. i desperately want to get out of this country. but i have no idea where to go. europe seems to be out, since no one wants to go especially since it's so expensive, and i have no intentions of travelling ard tt place by myself and i don't think the amount of money my dad's willing to give me or loan me will be enough for that place. i know it's unfair of me to say this, because my parents pay for my travelling, but sometimes i'm really quite disappointed in my friends, because we have discussed one million times to go overseas together, but the plan never materialises, because yes i know...money is the main problem for them, and that certainly is not an easy problem to solve so i really shouldn't be bitching about it. i'm sorry once again..but i've had quite enough of listening to ok really let's go somewhere together..and at the end NOTHING happens.

then there are problems like this person does not want to go with that person...or we all just have different destinations in mind. so once again nothing happens. the only place on most people's mind right now is BANGKOK, and i cannot express how much i dislike that place. there is absolutely nothing for me to do there. ok...i can hear someone saying...you can go there and drink and eat because it is how cheap...but i don't want to pay 100 plus to go overseas to get wasted and i hate thai food. shopping sucks, because i am sorry that i am an amazonian woman and i just can't fit into anything bangkok offers.

so recently...a few people have expressed that they are interested in going to hong kong...which i absolutely love...and i seriously don't mind going there. but for now, i shall not keep my hopes high, because i expect to be disappointed all over again.

sucks...now i feel sore and depressed. and i think after everyone read this..they are going to hate me and then i will lose all my friends. haha...well i hope that does not happen!

i have been thinking the past few days, and i think i shall stop sharing my love with others, and keep it all to myself.